By Myself

What do I do to ignore them behind me?

Do I follow my instincts blindly?

Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams

And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?

Do I sit here and try to stand it?

Or do I try to catch them red-handed?

Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness

Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?

Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin

I make the right moves but I'm lost within

I put on my daily facade but then

I just end up getting hurt again

[00:37.83]By myself (myself)

[00:39.81]I ask why, but in my mind I find

[00:42.05]I can't rely on myself (myself)

[00:44.50]I ask why, but in my mind I find

[00:46.67]I can't rely on myself

[02:31.23][01:35.65][00:48.28]I can't hold on

[02:33.08][01:37.70][00:50.43]To what I want when I'm stretched so thin

[02:35.81][01:40.24][00:52.72]It's all too much to take in

[02:40.41][01:44.83][00:57.31]I can't hold on

[02:42.33][01:46.71][00:59.51]To anything watching everything spin

[02:45.14][01:49.52][01:02.05]With thoughts of failure sinking in

If I Turn my back I'm defenseless

And to go blindly seems senseless

If I hide my pride and let it all go on then they'll

Take from me till everything is gone

If I let them go I'll be outdone

But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun

If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer

Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer

How do you think I've lost so much

I'm so afraid I'm out of touch

How do you expect I will know what to do

When all I know is what you tell me to

[02:11.92]Don't you know

[02:13.39]I can't tell you how to make it go

[02:15.46]No matter what I do how hard I try

[02:18.03]I can't seem to convince myself why

[02:20.13]I'm stuck on the outside

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