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底特律医疗中心，我们发现一位昏迷的35岁男性
DMC, we have a mid-thirties male found down, unresponsive
可能服用药物过度，成分不明
Possible overdose, substance unknown
脉搏微弱，呼吸8次/分钟
Pulse is 60 and thready, respiration's eight
已经戴上呼吸机
He's intubated and we're bagging him now
血压急剧下降
BP 90 over palp
病患温度下降，皮肤湿冷
Patient is cool, pale, and diaphoretic
已吸痰处理，昏迷指数三级(此处应为GCS，三级为严重)
Has aspirated, GSC is 3
我们十分钟后到医院
We'll update en route ETA ten minutes
当我进入一个狂乱的状态
As I fall deeper into a manic state
我深陷酒精和毒瘾之潭无法自拔
Im a prime candidate for the gene to receive the drug outta trate
血压急速飙高
The blood pressure climbs to a dramatic rate
不由自主地拿起奈奎尔吞了下去
I seem to gravitate to the bottle of Nyquil than i salivate
一开始我只是想尝一口
Start off with the Nyquil with like I think I will just have a taste
喝了几口以后，我开始渐渐觉得药效不够
Couple of sips of that than I gradually graduate
我觉得地西泮（安定剂）会够劲
To a harder prescription drug called valium like yah thats great
我本只打算吃一颗，最后吞了八颗
I go to just take one than i end up like having eight
现在我觉得饿了，我还没有吃饭（嗑药容易饿）
Now i need something in my stomach because i haven＇t ate
不如吃点墨西哥玉米片，再来份牛排吧
Maybe ill grab a plate of nachos and ill have a steak
看着我的女儿，我从没担心过毒瘾会毁掉我的生活
And youd think with all i have at stake look at my daughters face
"妈妈，爸爸又开始不对劲了"
Mommy something is wrong with dad I thank
”变得反复无常，他真的吓到我了"
Hes acting weird again he＇s really beginnings to scare me
"又不刮胡子，还假装听不见我的话“
Wont shave his beard again and he pretends that he doesn＇t hear me
"整天就只是啃着零食"
And all he does eat dorritos and cheetos and he just
"刚刚又吃了三跟巧克力棒，然后在车后座睡着了"
Fell asleep in his car eating three muskateers in the rear seat
有时我觉得我好孤单，我也不知为何
感觉我曾经走过这段路
Sometimes i feel so alone, I just don＇t know
如冰刀刺骨，寂寞占据了我的身体
It feels like ive been down this road before
尤其当我回到家，扣上房门
So lonely and cold it＇s like something takes over me
感觉好似似曾相识，我只想快点离开这里
As soon as i go home and close the door
但是我做不到，即使我尝试了，这不过是个谎言
God feels like déjà vu i wanna get away from this place i do
我不会走，为什么？我也不知道
But i cant and i won＇t say i try but i know it＇s a lie
"来点冰啤酒嘛？"
cause i don＇t and why i just don＇t knowwoooo
恶魔在我肩上耳语，但我已经戒酒一年了
Maybe just a nice cold brew, whats a beer
他一直纠缠怂恿着我，他的声音在我脑海里不断萦绕
Thats the devil in my ear ive been sober a fuckin year
"Marshall，我们一起来看节目吧，在播你最喜欢的《牛仔和海盗》噢""
And that fucker still talks to me hes all i can fuckign hear
要不我来个半杯吧，反正不会醉
Marshall c＇mon well watch the game its the cowboys and buccanears
这点酒马上就能醒，不过就是人为的规矩
And maybe if i just drink half ill be half buzzed
所以我喝了一半
For half of the time, whose the mastermind behind that little line
那就把剩下的也喝了吧，听起来很愚蠢
With that kind of rational man i got half a mind
没错，我知道，但不就是点小酒
To have another half a glass of wine sounds assenine
我朝着沙发走去，嗷，小心要撞到墙了
Yeah i know, but i never had no problem with alcohol
失去了平衡，像个弹力球撞在地上
Ouch look out for the wall aim for the couch im about to fall
该死，我是不是又喝多了，连地面都感觉不到了
I miss the couch and down go like a bouncy ball
昨晚发生了什么？我现在在哪里？
Shit must of knocked me out cause i didn＇t feel the ground at all
该死，我又宿醉了吗
Wow what the fuck happened last night where am i
头好痛，再来半颗维柯丁吧，为什么不呢
Man fuck am i hung over and god damn i
我们准备起飞了，其他的请让一让
Got a headache shit half a vicodin, why cant i
有时我觉得我好孤单，我也不知为何
All systems ready for take off, please stand by
感觉我曾经走过这段路
如冰刀刺骨，寂寞占据了我的身体
Sometimes i feel so alone, I just don＇t know
尤其当我一回到家，躲进房间
It feels like ive been down this road before
感觉好似似曾相识，我只想快点离开这里
So lonely and cold it＇s like something takes over me
但是我做不到，即使我尝试了，这不过是个谎言
As soon as i go home and close the door
我不会走，为什么？我也不知道
God feels like déjà vu i wanna get away from this place i do
结果我吃了一整颗维柯丁，我的胃顿时感觉一整舒爽
But i cant and i won＇t say i try but i know it＇s a lie
几个礼拜之后，我开始觉得药效不够我爽
cause i don＇t and why i just don＇t knowwoooo
现在只能够我感觉舒服一点，凑合着用
要是Proof没有死，我也不会无止境地嗑药（EM中学时期开始最铁的哥们）
So i take a vicodin splash it hits my stomach and ahhhhhh
对，没错，你不过是把Proof的死作为借口
Couple of weeks go by and it aint even like i am getting high
只要你觉得能说服自己，做什么都没关系
Now i need it to not feel sick yah im getting by
现在是正午12点，不妨睡个午觉吧
Wouldn＇t even be taking this shit if deshauwn didn＇t die
又不是什么新鲜事，猫王不也是这么做的（猫王成名后也嗑药成性）
Oh yeah theres an excuse you lose proof so you use
现在三个月过去了，我又毒瘾复发
Theres new rules its cool if its helping you to get through
在孩子们回来前先爽一把吧
Its twelve noon aint no harm in self inducing a snooze
既然我坚信我自己有失眠症（EM白天没精神需要嗑药，晚上因为药效需要安眠药才能睡着，不断恶性循环）
What else is new fuck it what would elvis do in your shoes
我需要这些药来入睡，所以我又小睡了三次
Now here i am three months later full blown relapse
这样才能熬过漫长的一天
Just get high until the kids get home from school holmes relax
每次一片安眠药，一天总共，三片
And since im convince that im an in-somni-ac
我才可以安稳地睡上一个小时
I need these pills to be able to sleep so i take three naps
现在你知道了，他为什么
Just to be able to function throughout the day
需要花四年才能做出下一张专辑
Lets see thats an ambian each nap how many valium three
我差点跟Heath Ledger一样死于嗑药
And that averages out to one good hour of sleep
你们还记得那年圣诞节，媒体报道我得肺炎被送去抢救吗
So now you see the reason how come he
胡扯，你难道真的以为不是美沙酮吗
Has taken four years to just put out an album b
还有你藏的黄片
See me and you we almost had the same outcome heath
你藏在碟盒里的药
Cause that Christmas you know that whole neumonia thing
都藏得天衣无缝吧？所以你安心地Hailie撒谎
It was bolognia was it the methadonia think
Whitney， Laney"宝贝们，再见啦，爹爹要去睡觉啦"（前妻Kim和另一个男人的女儿；Kim妹妹的孩子）
But hydrocordone ya hide inside ya pornos
走进卧室，关上房门
Ya vcr tape cases put ya ambiants see great places
醒来，发现我躺在救护车里；他们说在浴室地板上发现了昏迷的我，该死
To hide em aint it, so you can lie to haily
有时我觉得我好孤单，我也不知为何
Im going beddy by whitney baby good night elaina
感觉我曾经走过这段路
Go in the room and shut the bedroom door
如冰刀刺骨，寂寞占据了我的身体
And wake up in an ambulance they say they found me on the bathroom floor
尤其当我回到家，扣上房门
感觉好似似曾相识，我只想快点离开这里
Sometimes i feel so alone, I just don＇t know
但是我做不到，即使我尝试了，这不过是个谎言
It feels like ive been down this road before
我不会走，为什么？我也不知道
So lonely and cold it＇s like something takes over me
As soon as i go home and close the door
God feels like déjà vu i wanna get away from this place i do
But i cant and i won＇t say i try but i know it＇s a lie
cause i don＇t and why i just don＇t knowwoooo
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