The Things I Never Said

It isn’t easy to express what I feel inside

But that shouldn’t come as a surprise to you

Haven’t been the perfect mom

but please know that I tried

I did the best I could and that’s the best that I could do

Now facing a future that’s uncertain

I cannot say what lies ahead

But I won’t give up

I’ll face my fear

and fight back years of un-cried tears

and tell you all the things I never said

All of the hours spent at work

consumed with my career

I won’t blame you if you thought I didn’t care

Graduations that I missed

All the games I didn’t cheer

I never told you then but how I wanted to be there

As thoughts of the past run through my memory

The choices I’ve made, the life I’ve led

And office on the highest floor

It meant so much but you mean more

That’s one of many things

So much in my life I took for granted

Like tucking my children into bed

My world was always spinning fast

and in an instant years have past

and here I sit with so much left unsaid

I’ve always lived a world apart

But through it all you were my heart

That’s one of many things, so many things

I never said