Going Through Changes

歌词
I'm going through changes
我经历了变化
I'm going through changes
我经历了变化
Lately I really, feel like I'm rolling for ___ like Philly,
最近我真的感觉我就像---在翻滚
I feel like I'm losing control of myself, I sincerely,
我感觉我正在失去控制,我很理智
I apologize if all that I sound like, is I'm complaining,
如果这听起来像是我在抱怨,那我道歉
But life keeps on complicating, an' I'm debating,
但生活依旧很复杂 我很纠结
On leaving this world, this evening, even my girls,
要离开这个世界,这个晚上,甚至我的女儿
Can see I'm grievin', I try and hide it,
都可以看出我很悲伤,我试着隐藏这种情感
But I can't, why do I act like I'm all high and mighty,
但我不能,为什么我总是去表现得很高大
When inside, I'm dying, I am finally realizing I need help.
在我内心深处,我就快死了,我终于明确的意识到我需要帮助
I can't do it by myself, too weak, 2 weeks I've been having ups and downs,
我自己一人办不到,我太娘们了,两周了,我的生活一直有起伏
Going through peaks and valleys, dilly dallying,
经历高峰和低谷,延宕拖延
Around with the idea, of ending the shit right here.
让我另外有一个想法,去结束这垃圾一样的生活
I'm hatin' my reflection, I walk around the house tryin' to fight mirrors,
我厌恶自己的反应,我在家里踱步,试着和镜中的自己对峙
I can't stand what I look like, yeah, I look fat, but what do I care?
我受不了自己这样子,我看起来有些胖,但我关心的是什么?
I give a fuck, only thing I fear, is Hailie,
我所关心的,我唯一担心的,是hailie,
I'm afraid if I close my eyes I might see her,
我害怕如果闭上眼睛她会出现在我眼前,
Shit..
该死..
I'm going through changes
我经历了变化
I'm going through changes
我经历了变化
I lock myself in the bedroom, bathroom, nappin' at noon,
我把自己锁在卧室、浴室,在中午酣睡
Yeah dad's in a bad mood, he's always snappin' at you.
是的,爸爸心情不好的,他总是打你
Marshall what happened at you, you can't stop with these pills,
Marshall你到底怎么了,你不能停止吃这些药丸
And you've fallen off with your skills, and your own fans are laughin' at you.
你的说唱技巧已经离你而去,你的歌迷都在嘲笑你
It become a problem you're too pussy to tackle, get up,
TMD,你这么娘们根本解决不了问题,起来!
Be a man, stand, a real man woulda had this shit handled.
像个男人一样,站起来,一个真正的男子汉能把这些sh-t统统解决
Know you just had your heart ripped out and crushed,
我知道你的心刚刚经历过无限的痛苦
They say Proof just flipped out, homie just swift out and bust,
他们说proof,我最好的兄弟死了
Nah, it ain't like Doody to do that,
不,这根本不是我兄弟会干的事,
He wouldn't fuckin' shoot at, no-body, he fights first,
他TMD不应该向任何人开枪的,他不该先和别人动手
But dwellin' on it only makes the night worse,
但是纠结与这些只会让夜晚更糟糕
Now I'm poppin Vic's, perks and Methadone pills.
现在我只需要安眠药
Yeah Em, tight verse, you killed it,
yeah EM,把握好你的verse,让它无懈可击
Fuckin' drug dealers hang around me like "yes man",
那些该死的毒贩子在我身边徘徊着就像“yes man” (意思是不管你有什么要求,他们都会答yes)
And they gon' do whatever I says when, I says it,
当我开了口,他们什么事情都可以做
It's in their best interest to protect their investment.
只为了追求他们的金钱
And I just lost my fuckin' best friend, so fuck it, I guess then...
我失去了我最好的朋友,所以,去他妈的, 我想..
I'm going through changes
我经历了变化
Don't know what I'm going through, but I just keep on going through changes...
我不知道我经历了什么,但我还不断在改变...
My friends just can't understand this new me,
我的朋友们不理解这个新的我
That's understandable man, but just think how bananas you'd be,
伙计,这我能理解,但想想你曾经是怎样的一坨狗屎
You'd be an animal too, if you were trapped in this fame and caged in it like a zoo.
如果你也被名声所困,就像被关在动物园的笼子里,那你TMD的也一样会像只动物
And everybody's lookin' at you, what you want me to do,
所有人都看着你,你想要让我怎么做
I'm startin' to live like a recluse and the truth is,
于是我隐退了,开始新的生活
Fame startin' to give me an excuse, to be at a all time low.
我的名气变得空前的低,这给了我一个借口
I sit alone in my home theatre, watchin' the same damn DVD,
我独自坐在我的家庭影院前,看着同一部该死的DVD
Of the first tour, the last tour, he was still alive.
第一次巡演,最后一次巡演,他还活着
And it hurt sore, fast forward, sleepin' pills'll make me feel alright.
这揭开了我的伤疤,快进,只有安眠药能让我觉得好受一点
And if I'm still awake in the middle of the night,
如果后半夜我还在床上辗转难眠
I just take a couple more, yeah you're motherfuckin' right,
我会多吃一倍的安眠药,yeah 你说的TM太对了
I ain't slowin' down for no one, I am almost homeward bound.
我不会为任何人放慢脚步,我马上就要到家了
Almost in a coma, yeah homie come on, don't look now,
几乎处于昏迷,yeah加油兄弟,你就快到了
Daddy, don't you die on me, daddy, better hold your ground.
爸爸,你死了我会很难过的,爸爸,好好坚持下去
Fuck, don't I know the sound of that voice,
TMD,我听见你说话的声音了
Yeah baby hold me down.
好 宝贝 抱紧爸爸
I'm going through changes
我经历了变化
Don't know what I'm going through, but I just keep on going through changes...
不知道我正在经历什么,但我只想继续改变
Wake up in the hospital, full of tubes, plus somehow I'm pullin' through.
在医院醒来,身上插满了管子,终于度过了危险期
Swear when I come back I'ma be bulletproof.
我发誓当我回来的时候,我会穿上防弹衣
I'ma do it just for Proof, I think I should state a few,
我这样做只是为了proof,我觉得我应该说些东西
Facts, cause I may not get a chance again to say the truth.
事实上,因为我可能不会再有机会说出事实了
shit it just hit me that what if I would notta made it through?
shit 如果我没挺过来,这该怎么办
I think about the things I would never got to say to you,
我想着那些永远不打算对你说出的话语
I'd never get to make it right, so here's what I came to do.
我从来都没有好好表达过,所以现在我决定做些什么
Hailie this one is for you, Whitney and Alaina too,
hailie这是给你的,Whitney还有Alaina,你们也一样
I still love your mother, that'll never change,
我依旧爱着你妈妈,这是永远不会改变的
Think about her every day, we just could never get it together.
我每一天都很想她,但是我们可能永远无法复原了
Hey, wish there was a better way, for me to say it,
嘿,希望能有一个更好的方式,让我来说出它
But I swear on everything, I'd do anything for her on anyday.
我用我的一切发誓,我愿意在任何时间为她做任何事情
There are just too many things, to explain, when it rains,
有太多的东西,需要解释,既然我已开口
Guess it pours, yes it does, wish there wasn't any pain.
就让我把所有话语都倾泻出来,我希望我从没有经历这些痛苦
But I can't pretend there ain't, I ain't placin' any blame,
但我不能假装这些都没发生过,我这不是在指责你
I ain't pointin' fingers, heaven knows there never been a saint.
也没有把矛头指向你,老天知道的,这世界有从来没有完人
I know it just feels like we just pissed away our history,
我知道,是我们挥霍了我们的过往曾经
But just today, I looked at your picture, almost hate to say,
但就在今天,当我看着你的照片,我不得不说
I miss you self consciously, wish it didn't end this way.
在我的潜意识里我一直都思念着你,我希望我们从没有结束
But I just had to get away, don't know why,
但不知为什么,我不得不逃避这情感
I don't know what else to say, I guess I'm..
我不知道还有什么其他可说,我想我..
I'm going through changes
我经历了变化
Don't know what I'm going through, but I just keep on going through changes...
不知道我正在经历什么,但我只想继续改变
专辑信息
1.Cold Wind Blows
2.Talkin' 2 Myself
3.On Fire
4.Won't Back Down
5.W.T.P.
6.Going Through Changes
7.Not Afraid
8.Seduction
9.No Love
10.Space Bound
11.Cinderella Man
12.25 to Life
13.So Bad
14.Almost Famous
15.Love the Way You Lie
16.You're Never Over
17.Untitled (hidden track)
18.Ridaz
19.Session One