歌词
(This song deals with NF's mother's addiction to popping pills and the neglect he felt throughout his life)
（此歌予NF滥用药物致死的母亲，并倾诉无人关爱的感想）
(He feels that she chose the pills over her own kids and therefore, and that she left him standing in the dust)
（他感到母亲宁愿选择毒品也不顾孩子，甚至任他自生自灭）
你怎能突然扔下我们不管？
How could you leave us so unexpected?
我们等着，等着你回岸
We were waiting, we were waiting
对你等待却是枉然
For you but you just left us
我们需要...我需要你
We needed you, I needed you
我不知道嗑药到底会有什么感受
但我清楚目睹至亲死去有多难受
Yo, I don't know what it's like to be addicted to pills
妈妈说她有多爱我，我真的觉得很荒谬
But I do know what it's like to be a witness it kills
闻到烟臭时，你的身影才在我脑海停留
Mama told me she love me, I'm thinking this isn't real
欢迎来到痛苦深窖
I think of you when I get a whiff of that cigarette smell, yeah
人们说痛楚如囚，我只想逃离这苦牢
Welcome to the bottom of hell
你说以我为荣，可你对我根本从不知晓
They say pain is a prison, let me out of my cell
坐在房里，泪不成声的我却无助地吼叫
You say you proud of me, but you don't know me that well
前一秒还在我耳边说好放学要为我接送
Sit in my room, tears running down my face and I yell
下一秒你却反悔，留我在校门口无地自容
Into my pillowcases, you say you coming to get us
我在房间里对着素不相识的父母感到无所适从
Then call 'em a minute later just to tell us you not, I'm humiliated
调查的女士作起笔记望着我们蜷缩在角落里只觉无关痒痛
I'm in a room with a parent that I don't barely know
我真不明白，妈妈你真不想看着孩子长大？
Some lady in the corner watching us, while she taking notes
哪怕放不下这些药丸，只要你肯拒绝就足够
I don't get it mom, don't you want to watch your babies grow?
可你根本不会这样做，不到死你都不会回头
I guess that pills are more important, all you have to say is no
明知你去世 却仍觉得你还没走
But you won't do it will you? You gon' keep popping 'til those pills kill you
你为什么离开我们？
I know you gone but I can still feel you
为什么要离开我们？
你怎么能这样一走了之？
Why would you leave us?
怎么能撇下我们不管？
Why would you leave us?
为什么你要抛弃我们？
How could you leave us here?
How would you leave us?
看着家庭照也能将我折磨到底
Why would you leave us?
我并不想照片里的母亲，我要真实的你
Oh, Hey...
如今我们之间的亲情已经无法回到从前
为什么我会觉得心中若有缺陷？
I got this picture in my room and it kills me
我毕业的时候身边该有你
But I don't need a picture of my mom, I need the real thing
告诉你爱我，然后为我欢庆【NF高中毕业那年母亲刚好去世】
Now a relationship is something we won't ever have
而不是留我们在窗前白白等你
Why do I feel like I lost something that I never had?
你在哪，妈？是不是我们年少无知找不到你在哪里 嗯？
You shoulda been there when I graduated
我很清楚那些毒药让你着迷不已
Told me you love me and congratulations
我能看到你眼里的药瘾，药性将你占据
Instead you left us at the window waiting
有人谈起嗑药有多痛快，我却毫无笑意
Where you at mom? We're too young to understand where you at huh?
估计当时的你根本就意识不到这些事情
Yeah, I know those drugs got you held captive
不知道我只是个懵懂的孩子根本无法理解你
I can see it in your eyes, they got your mind captured
我永远不会原谅你因为我未想过要责怪你
Some say it's fun to get the high but I am not laughing
心想时过境迁，痛苦也许不值一提
What you don't realise and what you not grasping
你要真的关心我，那你到底去了哪里？
That I was nothing but a kid who couldn't understand
你为什么离开我们？
I ain't gon' say that I forgive you cause it hasn't happened
为什么要离开我们？
I thought that maybe I feel better as time passes
你怎么能这样一走了之？
If you really cared for me, then where you at then?
怎么能撇下我们不管？为什么要抛弃我们？
Why would you leave us?
上一次对话，你还和我坐房间里交心
Why would you leave us?
谈起我的音乐，就给了几首小样让你听听
How could you leave us here?
你却哭了起来，斥责我这样下去不行
How could you leave us? Why would you leave us?
要能撑多几星期，你肯定会改变反对的声音
Oh, Hey
取而代之你最后还是沾上几颗药丸
它们曾经从我们带走了你，如今却是一去不复返
Our last conversation, you and I were sat in the living room
我在录音棚哭红了眼是有多丑
Talking 'bout my music and I brought you something to listen to
只有音乐能让我述出对你的悲愁
You started crying, telling me this isn't you
唯有这样才让我在你葬礼上忍住泪流
Couple weeks later, guess you were singing a different tune
坐椅子上的我说起话也可怜难受
You took them pills for the last time, didn't you?
多希望你在这里，可每当想起你
They took you from us once, guess they came back to finish you
我只觉得痛苦，我憎恨思念的痛楚
Crying my eyes out in the studio is difficult
他们发现你倒在地上，我能描述出你的绝望
Music is the only place that I can go to speak to you
给这该死的药丸付出了生命和所有
It took everything inside of me to not scream at your funeral
你把拥有的一切都倒进了药丸的瓶口
Sitting in my chair, that person talking was pitiful
不知你有没听见我，可你要是看见了能不能回句话 妈！
I wish you were here mama but every time I picture you
你为什么离开我们？
All I feel is pain, I hate the way I remember you
为什么要离开我们？
They found you on the floor, I could tell that you felt hallow
你怎么能这样一走了之？
Gave everything you had plus your life to them pill bottles
怎么能撇下我们不管？
You gave everything you had plus your life to them pill bottles
为什么要抛弃我们？
Don't know if you hear me or not, but if you still watching ma
（啜泣）有时我也想过..
Why would you leave us?
有时我会那样想，你知道吗
Why would you leave us?
要是我有了自己的孩子，你却不在那，你懂吗？
How could you leave us here?
发生什么事你都不会在那里
How would you leave us?
反正再也见不到你了
Why would you leave us?
有时我想当初要是打个电话给你
Oh, Hey...
想着要是拿起电话，你在另一头就好了
你本该在这里照顾好我们
(Sobbing) Sometimes I think about like
你本来留在这里的，是该死的药把你带走了，对不？
Sometimes I think about things like, you know
该死的药把你带走了，对不？
When I have kids, you won't be there, you know?
我希望你还在这
You won't be there for any of that
I'll never get to see you again
Sometimes I wish I would have just called you
I wish I would have just picked up the phone, wish you were here
I mean you should of been there for us
You should have been here, those pills got you, right?
Them pills got you, right?
I wish you were here
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