歌词
I spent too much time erasing, not enough time changing
我花了太多时间去清除过去 却没有足够时间去改写
Blurring the lines between sick and selfish
病态的渴望和自私之间的界限逐渐模糊
Hoping I can grab on for just a second
我真希望自己能抓住它 哪怕一秒钟
But I've learned to take what I can get
但我已学会去把握自己能力之内的
And relent only when I meet my own death
我会毕露锋芒 直到迎来自己的死亡才会温驯
And find a pace I can circumvent
我会找到一条避开风险的路
When was truth less about proving a point and just proving someone wrong
到那时 真相不再是证明一个观点 而是驳倒某人
All along I'll rest my aching joints to my own broken hope and swan song
自始自终 我都将把我身体疼痛的关节寄托给我碎掉的希望和最后的绝唱
But maybe I'm over worked
但也许 我有些过度劳累了
because I like breaking the healing process as a comfort
因为我喜欢打断那些让我恢复的疗程 并且视作缓解痛苦的方式
when I'm aching
尽管我仍在疼痛
With this new perspective I'm finally taking
有了这个新奇的、我终于领悟的想法
I made this bed and I will sleep in it
我造了这个安逸的温床然后睡在上面
The comfort of your warm sheets will bring me to the further flames of hell
你温暖的被单带来的安慰把我领进了炼狱之火的深处
I made this bed and I will sleep in it
我造了这个安逸的温床然后睡在上面
Even if our honesty is building peace into a bed of nails
即使我们彼此的真诚足以让我们在布满钉子的床上睡得安稳
Death is not a choice and love should not be either
死亡不是一个选择 爱也不该是
I'll endure the pain if our hearts endure the weather
我会像我们的心脏去承受多变的天气一样去忍受痛苦
The only pain worse than killing with force is killing with neglect I guess
我想 比用暴力杀害更痛苦的凶器只有一种 那就是无视
And now I know that our love was completely dead
而现在我知道我们的爱已经死透
I will complicate this love just to feel something
我义无反顾卷入这场爱情只为有所感受
And I'm sorry if it's clouded all the facts
如果发生的一切都是愁云满布 我道歉
The rhythm of my heartbeat change in the moment that
我的心跳速率在那一刻改变了
I realized you are not coming back
在我意识到你再也不会回来的那一刻
I will complicate this love just to feel something
我义无反顾卷入这场爱情只为有所感受
And I'm sorry if it's clouded all the facts
如果发生的一切都是愁云满布 我道歉
The rhythm of my heartbeat change in the moment that
我的心跳速率在那一刻改变了
I conceptualize the words I masked
我赋予被我模糊了含义的词语以新的意义
I made this bed and I will sleep in it
我造了这个安逸的温床然后沉溺其中
The comfort of your warm sheets will bring me to the further flames
你温暖的被单带来的安慰把我领进了炼狱之火的深处
I will give up all I have just to go back home
我要放下所有了 我只想回家
I'm trapped in bread crumbs (???)
但我被金钱困住（？）
I hope you know I hate being alone
我希望你明白 我讨厌孤身一人
You used to make my mind clear
你曾经让我的内心豁然开朗
Now your absence does instead
而现在你的消失让我清醒
I heard your dog barking in the backyard
我听见你的狗在后院里叫
He only does that when you're home
他只在你回家时才会这样做
And I just hope you understand
我只希望你明白
I never meant to grow apart
分道扬镳并不是我的初衷
But I know at some point I had to grow
但有些时候 我又清楚不得不离开
I guess I could've picked a better time to learn patience
我想我本应该挑个更合适的时机学会耐心
But now I'm learning that I am becoming the one who broke my heart
但现在我知道 我是让自己心碎的罪魁祸首
I was a creature of habit but with no real intentions
我是个墨守成规的人 却没有自己的目标
I conformed to what I understood to be happiness
我遵守那些我认为会带来幸福的条条框框
Or undiagnosed telf medicated
或者不明所以的自我救赎
approach to getting lost in each other's contemptment
达到沉湎于互相之间的满足中的境地
lead to a misconception of your beauty
产生对你的美丽的错觉
I still can't believe that I lied to you
我仍然不敢相信 我对你撒了谎
Especially because when I said it, I thought I was telling the truth
尤其是当我对你撒谎时 我竟然骗过了自己
I thought I was strong enough to carry you but now my mind is clear
我自以为我有坚强的臂膀扛起你 但现在我清醒了
And I hope you hear this
我希望你能听见这句话
I love you
我爱你
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