I Will Struggle

I'm wide awake I know the truth

Some people are poison and I'm the proof

I hear the voice inside that says

Everyone is beautiful

But you

One mind any weapon

I'm in heaven

My nerves start to deaden

Everything is the same to me

When I let go I become who I might be

Why do I hate what they love

My insecutities and everything I'm made of

I'm okay with being something I'm not

We live

We die

We rot

Every single day

I will struggle

To just be happy again

To feel normal

I know I'm in trouble

Is this the way that it feels to be no one

I will struggle

Every day that I survive feels like a miracle

I'm in trouble

This is the way that it feels to be no one

I hate myself

I want to die

I can't find meaning in this life

I never asked to be alive

And I don't think I was born to survive

The needle breaks the skin

I feel it sinking in

My god what have I done

My mother's only son

I'm far from invincible

And some days I feel invisible

Every single day

I will struggle

To just be happy again

To feel normal

I know I'm in trouble

Is this the way that it feels to be no one

I will struggle

Every day that I survive feels like a miracle

I'm in trouble

This is the way that it feels to be no one

Life is so hard

But we share the same struggle

They say better a live coward

Than a dead hero

I thought I was chosen

But really I am broken

I'm fragile

I could break at any moment

Don't be like me

Don't be like me

If you know there is hope

Set yourself free

If the good die young

Then I'll be around for a lifetime

If the good die young

Then I'll be around for a lifetime

Don't be like me

Don't find comfort in the places I go

I'm too scared to look in a mirror

Too afraid to live

But too cowardly to die

I'm selfish

I'm a liar

I'm flawed

I can't control my anger

I can't face my appearance

I can't love the right way

But it's time to face the truth

I will struggle every day

For the rest of my life

And I'll always in every way and every day

I will struggle

And I'll always in every way and every day

I will struggle

And I'll always in every way and every day

I will struggle

And I'll always in every way and every day

I will struggle