*** & Loneliness

Words are scattered everywhere

Summer's gone and the chilly air

Has found a home inside your chest

So I will grow some thicker skin

That indie beard over sunken chins

And try my hardest to contest

The window's whispering your name

And the shine from the ATMs

The memory of your window's view is clear

kids and chandeliers

Somewhere in the darkness there was hope

But even when we seize to move

The bottled heat would somehow prove

You to be more than

You chose the cheapest of escapes

And I hope it's keeping you awake

When you're laying there alone at night

After you put out the lights to keep your insecurities asleep

While sorting out which memories to keep

When we both sleep in different beds

And dream of *** and loneliness

With warm but shallow breath

The bitterness that I inhale

And the elloquence that I exhale

I admit they tend to fog my specs

But that was fine until the day

You came to wipe the mist away

And I chose to love and have regrets

I hope you're keeping that in mind

As you are leaving me behind

With a smile that speaks of no remorse

While I'm wondering of course

If I can still be caught remembering

Every single freckle on your skin

At the hour when the ship comes in

Waving hands and easy grins

For every heart that went