歌词
Fallin' apart
采样自 Not Much to Look At- $uicideboy$
You might've thought I was playing a part in the art I've created
人称使用: Raindrop Walka / Hearse Boy
But most of the words reflect what's happened or what is waiting to start happenin'
支离破碎
I keep on damagin' myself, tryna fill the void
对于我们所创造的艺术 你可能认为我是不可或缺的
With all this water on my neck, I'm 'bout to drip until I drown
当之有愧 只不过是反映着我的痛苦 已经发生的 正在发生的
All these drugs up in my nose, I taste the drip, that sh*t's so sour
一直在伤害我自己 试图用痛苦来填补空虚
All these cars that I bought either don't start or they got impounded
顾影惭形 名声在外如流水钻 而又滴水成河 直到我快溺亡
Pursue the American dreams in life, that's what I doubted
抓了一大把药片 这口大的是真他妈的冲
Catch a flight to London or I'll catch a flight to Lyon
我所期望过的 努力过的 付出过的 不是还给我 失败 就是 失望
Show my face in public, show another one alone
追求着美国梦 美国噩梦却动摇着我
See my name on the marquee, letters falling down
全球巡演繁忙 城市到下一个城市 我都很难落地
Littering a cold dark street somewhere downtown
或许在巡演上风光无限 有妞在家里等我
Soon as I reached cloud nine, it started stormin'
可金玉其外 而我的内心早已枯萎掉落
Heavy thunderstorms in every city that I'm tourin'
掉在市中心某处冰冷黑暗的街道上
Life feels like a rap video, that's just the warnin'
当暴风雨伴随着我到达九霄云外/极乐世界时
Hopin' to see the sun when I wake up in the mornin'
在我到的每个城市都会下起一场雷暴雨
All this misery, misery, misery, f*ck
生活可不是说唱MV 而是实实在在的
Look at my history, no mystery where I might end up, just shut up
希望醒来还能清晨的太阳
Don't wanna hear it, it's my decision
所有的这些痛苦 苦难 折磨，他妈的
May be my last wish so just please listen
看看我的过去 用脚趾头都能想明白之后会怎么样 所以就闭嘴吧 (在Scrim在2020年5月15日个人专辑《The Man Dead From Rose》发行后 上传了一条IG Live来谈及这个问题 表示自己厌倦了之前关于药物的生活 不想与自己的上瘾做斗争 不想自己的未来在OD和被监禁之间做选择 不想写以前那种痛苦的歌 不想听这些什么说“我更希望Scrim去重新使用药物 不然他的歌没以前那味了” 闭嘴吧闭嘴吧闭嘴吧）
So long, it's been torture bein' here
我并不想听 这都是我的决定
So gone, I can't hide now I cope with fear
或许是我的遗言 最后请听我说
Same song and I'm sick of singin' it
要走了 走在这人世间是一种折磨
Let me move on, it's for my benefit
要完了 药丸可不会在恐惧时嫌多
Become one, come all to my downfall
同样的歌 我已经厌倦了唱它
Bear witness to everything that I can't solve
人往高处走 水往低处流
My therapist made me promise before I end it all
但 来吧 都来吧 看看我的堕落
That if I wan' be the one, I choose to call, crying, asking
看看我没办法面对的麻烦
"Is it really worth it?
我的心理医生让我保证 如果我有任何自杀或者伤害自己的念头
What's beneath the surface or behind the curtain?"
就一定要先选择给她打电话 我哭着问她
Really don't think I wanna take this any further
“这一切真的值得吗？”
Made a last attempt to figure out my purpose
“在明处和暗处到底有什么？”
I called her phone, it said not in service
我真的不想再这样继续痛苦下去了
When life gets hard (Gets hard)
做了最后一次尝试 想弄清楚我的人生为何要受这一遭苦
Keep on marchin' on (Keep on marchin' on)
我打过去 只有一个冰冷的女声
Even if the finish line is far or you have to push the car (Push the car)
“您所拨打的电话不在服务区”
Keep on marchin' on (Keep on marchin' on, not in service)
当生活变得艰难
When life gets hard (Gets hard)
也不要停下你前行的脚步（继续前行吧）
Keep on marchin' on (Keep on marchin' on)
就算终点线实在遥远 就算要付出很多代价
Even if the finish line is far or you have to push the car (Push the car)
也不要停下你前行的脚步
Keep on marchin' on (Keep on marchin' on)
当生活变得艰难
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