歌词
I'm so alone
我好孤独
But all of my friends, but all of my friends,
但是我的“朋友”都
Got some s*it to do, yea
有他们各自的事情
All of 'em got plans,
有各自的计划
I call 'em up, "my bad," and text 'em
我给他们打电话,说着“不好意思”,然后发短信
They never cross me like bad pedestrians
他们却视而不见听而不闻(就像路人甲一样)
I've been this awkward since adolescence
我自打少年时代便体会过这样的狼狈(Saba从12岁开始上中学开始就一直没有朋友)
I don't know how long I had depression
我都不知道自己抑郁了多久了
Never no peer-pressure, I'm tryna' get my little p****r
没有体会过来自同龄人的压力(但是也没有同龄人来帮助他了)
Off in some girl I call my BFF, that ain't no secret kept
当我看到我称之为“Best Friend Forever”的女孩时,我试着偷偷与她们搭讪,但是却没能保守好秘密
I f****d then told my cousin, I'm broke, I wasn't buzzin'
我干了一发后便告诉我的表兄弟,我真是遭透了,我一定是脑子不清醒(当时对性的认知依旧很幼稚,但是性是一个复杂而成熟的概念)
I tried to hit a few years, she wasn't budgin'
几年后我还想与她再约一次,她没了兴致
I'm bogus, left my girl for some shawty
而我也不真诚,离开了她去找别的女孩
Surely deservin' of all this lonely
我真是活该没朋友(Saba的抑郁情绪导致他自我怀疑)
"You sad? Tell me, how are you sad?
“你不开心吗?说说你为何难过?
You got all of these friends, you got all of these fans"
你有那么多朋友和粉丝呢!”
I ain't trust nobody new since 2012, I ain't let nobody in
而我从2012年开始就不再相信任何人了,我再也不会让别人进入我的生活了
Jesus got killed for our sins,
耶稣因为我们的原罪受难
Walter got killed for a coat
而我的兄弟Walter因为一件外套被杀(就像圣经中的Joseph因为得到父亲送的大衣而被兄弟嫉妒、变卖为奴)
I'm tryna' cope,
我试着面对悲痛
But it's a part of me gone and apparently I'm alone
但是失去Walter就是失去骨肉,我现在当然孤身一人了
I'm havin' a busy day, I'll hit you back right away
我正忙,回头见(Saba的叔叔去世时,Saba正在巡回演出)
I seen that skies were grey, I hope to God you're safe
我望着灰蒙蒙的天空,祈祷着你一切安好
I'm havin' a busy day, I'll hit you back right away
我正忙,回头见(Walter被杀时,Saba还在录音室)
I seen that skies were grey, I hope to God you're safe
我望着灰蒙蒙的天空,祈祷着你一切安好
I'm so alone
我无比寂寞
Just me and my girl, she leave me for work,
当我和她在一起时,她先是为了工作、
Then leave me for school
后是为了学业离我而去
She finally home, I leave her for tour
有天她终于回到家中,我却因为巡演离她而去(两人志向不和,缺少陪伴)
FaceTiming nudity, yeah
如此这般,只能从FaceTime裸聊中获得快感
All of this new to me, yeah
而这些对我来说又太陌生了(Saba不喜欢这种***方式)
All of the infidelity when I was 17
我回想起17岁那年的不忠(呼应上一个verse,这里可能指Saba和上一段提到的女孩又复合了)
Been catchin' up, I still feel like she catch me cheatin'
回忆划过脑海,我仍在想她是否会觉得我欺骗感情
****** askin' me how tour was
大伙儿们问我巡演怎么样了
Knowin' I been home like 2 months
他们知道我已经在家呆了两个月了
And I seen your ass like 2 times
我和她大概上过两次床
Save the small-talk like too,
彼此间没什么交流
Damn no time, social interaction
也没时间去社交了
Have female friends I found attractive
也有女孩们让我如痴如醉
I tried to ****, but I am no savage
但我也没性趣了
Now we don't speak, we just walk past
如今我们已形同陌路
If my past could talk,
如果我能回到过去
It'd probably reply to the missed calls after all
我也许会回掉所有的未接来电
'Cause the friends*ips that I can't recall,
因为那些早已被我淡忘的友情
Done turned my heart into camouflage
让我心如死灰(埋藏在了迷彩下)
While the guys I used to play basketball with
那些往昔的球友
Doin' s*it that I can't endorse
正做着我没法触及的事情
Now with the Lord, now it really pours down
有的人已在天堂;现在我的孤独如同大雨倾盆
Was alone then, still alone now
自始至终,我都是一人承担这一切
I'm havin' a busy day, I'll hit you back right away
我正忙,回头见
I seen that skies were grey, I hope to God you're safe
我望着灰蒙蒙的天空,祈祷着你一切安好
I'm havin' a busy day, I'll hit you back right away
我正忙,回头见
I seen that skies were grey, I hope to God you're safe
我望着灰蒙蒙的天空,祈祷着你一切安好
I'm barely here, how I ain't present
我没能出现,我为何当时不在场(Walter遇害、女友回家时,Saba太忙导致自己没能挽救,如今感到十分自责)
Yeah I drift for a second
我只是开了一会儿小差
Forgot to reply to your message
只是忘了回复你一条短信
But only she, I been the same in your presence
但是这么多年我在你眼中都是这样子——
Countin' the seconds, before I reply to your message
我一直拖着不回,你等我等得焦头烂额
My biggest fear,
我最大的恐惧
Is that I have to say goodbye another time
就是我还要与人诀别(已经失去了太多重要的人)
So I just keep tellin' her I'm on,
所以我一直告诉她我是认真的
Hopefully prolonging this
希望能够维持这段感情
I don't need nobody new to miss
我不想再失去一位挚友
I want you to know, uuh
我只想让你知道......
Sirens on the way, ayy
救护车的警笛声响起
Now you're lying where the angels lay (yeah)
你的生命悄然而逝(追思Walter)
Sirens on the way, ayy
条子的警笛声响起
Now we're lying where the angels lay (yeah)
咱们黑人性命不保(你们懂的)
Sirens on the way, ayy
救护车的警笛声响起
Now you're lying where the angels lay (yeah)
你的生命悄然而逝
Sirens on the way, ayy
条子的警笛声响起
Now we're lying where the angels, ye
咱们黑人性命不保
Ridin' through the city
城里开车兜风
I'm young, I'm black, I'm guilty
年轻的黑人即罪犯(在白人眼中)
I know one time want to kill me
我知道有一回一个条子差点就要杀了我
They don't know me but they fear me
那些不认识我的人都心存畏惧
Fifteen years old with the sticky
15岁的孩子也会倒在警察枪口(****受害者不分年龄,sticky有“麻烦”的意思,这里就是指警察)
They gon' blame it on the m*******a
而条子拿叶子当借口
Hands behind your head
你还不快快抱头投降
And they won't let up off the head
还没抬起来人头就已落地
What if I move to this one state?
要是我身处此景会怎样?
What if they shootin' that s*it hit?
要是那颗**真打中我了呢?
What if I run then it look bad?
要是我逃跑了会不会越抹越黑?
Drawing they gun right off the hip
条子掏出了枪
I'm probably deservin',
那我也是活该
'Cause I know they serve and protect
要是我一身清白,****怎会****
But they think I'm servin',
但是他们觉得我们黑人是**
Or they think my cellphone's a weapon
或者说我的手机疑似武器
Heard that the robber wore a black mask
一听说那个劫匪戴着黑面具
I fit the description, a.k.a. *****,
凶手必是黑人无疑
What is the difference
反正有什么区别呢(上面几句隐射Stephon Clark之死。他因为符合嫌犯带黑面具的特征而被搜捕,他的手机被误以为是**,因此被警察杀害)
Is it the name, we so divided I'm from Division
我们的社会如此撕裂,种族问题如此尖锐
Clutch that purse 'cause of my dreadlocks
看见我的脏辫你就捂紧钱包
Cross that street 'cause I'm with my friends
看见我的兄弟你就赶紧绕道
Curse every song in Hip-Hop
咒骂着每一首黑泡
Keep telling yourself it's a fad
丑化它说它太狂躁(讽刺对于黑人的刻板印象)
Sirens on the way, ayy
救护车的警笛声响起
Now you're lying where the angels lay (yeah)
你的生命悄然而逝
Sirens on the way, ayy
条子的警笛声响起
Now we're lying where the angels lay (yeah)
咱们黑人性命不保
Sirens on the way, ayy
救护车的警笛声响起
Now you're lying where the angels lay (yeah)
你的生命悄然而逝
Sirens on the way, ayy
警笛声一响
Now we're lying where the—
我们都将去天堂
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