Jezebel

To think of my task is chilling

To know I was carefully

Building the mask I was wearing

For two years, swearing I'd tear it off

I've sat in the dark explaining to myself

That I'm straining too hard for feelings

I ought to find easily

Called myself Jezebel, I don't believe

Before I say that the vows we made

Weigh like a stone in my heart

Family is family

Don't let this tear us apart

You lie there, an innocent baby

I feel like the thief

Who is raiding your home

Entering and breaking

And taking in every room

I know your feelings are tender

And that inside you the embers still glow

But I'm a shadow, I'm only a bed of blackened coal

Call myself Jezebel for wanting to leave

I'm not saying

I'm replacing love for some other word

To describe the sacred tie

Tthat bound me to you

I'm just saying

We've mistaken one for thousands of words

And for that mistake

I've caused you such pain

That I damn that word

I've no more ways to hide

That I'm a desolate and empty

Hollow place inside

I'm not saying

I'm replacing love for some other word

And to describe the sacred tie

That bound me to you

I'm not saying

Love's a plaything no, it's a powerful word

Inspired by strong desire

To bind myself to you

How I wish that we never had tried

To be man and his wife?

To weave our lives into a

Blindfold over both our eyes