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And that was a dark depressing time for him, you know
你知道…那段时光对他来说既黑暗又压抑，
He did had one visit with his mother I think
我想，他确实有跟他母亲见过一面，
During the time that he lived with me and she brought
那是在他还和我住一起的期间发生的事了。
Him a huge box fill with gifts you know clothes and all
她给他带了一箱子的礼物，有衣服，
Kinds of little goodies and stuff and it sat in the corner
还有各式各样的糖果和小玩意。那箱子放在了角落，
Untouched, literally for months he'd never opened anything just
差不多放了好几个月，他碰都不碰，也不拆开任何一个礼物，
Left the box there
那箱子就这么一直放着。
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What's going on in your mind when someone you haven't seen
你脑袋里会想到些什么？
since you were nine is out at your door step right now?
当某个在你九岁以后就再没出现过的人，现在就站在你门口的台阶上。
Rewind, remember that one time when Marco showed up at the front door
回忆蜂拥而至，还记得有一次马克（Marco）出现在门口，
And we found out he escaped from a psych ward
我们发现他从精神病院逃了出来，
And stole grandma's car?
还把奶奶的车偷走了的事吗？
Ah, rest her soul
啊，愿奶奶的灵魂得到安息。
I know that's off topic, but I miss her soul
我知道我跑题了，但我很想念她（奶奶）。
So ironic that she was blind but told me I'm handsome I was
记得有件令人啼笑皆非的事，奶奶是个失明人士，
Every time that I walked in the door
但每次我进到屋里她都会跟我说我有多帅气。
Can't lie and say it was easy being 14 on February 14th
Watching a body die in my arms
看着那具身体在我的臂弯里死去。
Then have to go to a school that I hated
然后，我不得不去那所让我感到厌恶的学校上课，
When my grade indicate that I don't give a fuck what's going on
我的成绩证明我根本不在乎在几个小时后都发现了什么事情
A couple hours later on
（几个小时后）
And not to mention that one bitch that I loved
更别提那个我当时深爱的碧池了
By the way I call her "bitch" because she was
顺便说一下，我之所以称她为碧池，那是因为她当时
Wanted me to catch another man fucking her
就是想让我抓到她跟另一个男人在一起的证据。
Invited me over, told me to come into the front
当时她邀请我过去，告诉我要进到屋里来，
Come upstairs and say what's up
到楼上来，我说”“怎么了，什么事？”
And there she was
然后我看见了她
Little slut
她这个小荡妇
I was broken hearted, should've broke that bitch's jaw
看着眼前的一切我的心碎了一地，当时我应该好好教训她的，
Just for playin' me like a chump
她把我当傻子一样地玩弄我的感情，
But instead went to the garage, grabbed one
但我没那么做，而是选择去她家车库，拿了把
Of her brother's rifles, went outside, and shot that other
她哥哥的步枪，对着外面的货车
Mothafucka's truck up
一通扫射。
I guess that's what lead me to cuffs
我猜这是我被铐上手铐带走的原因。
Becomin' common in my life like funerals was
就像葬礼在我的人生中常常出现一样，
Daddy's less common now, he gave up
可爸爸现在没那么常出现了，他对我放弃了，
After he heard the judge pin a fucking felony on his son
当他听到法官给他儿子判了重刑。
Funny enough
真有趣
Me and Aunt Barbara even closer
我跟芭芭拉（Barbara）阿姨更亲近了，
Start to feel some weight lift off her shoulder
Till it piled back on when a radiologist told her
当一个放射科医生告诉她
That she had breast cancer and might not live much longer
她得了乳癌，可能时日无多了。
Fast forward
快进，
The woman that I call my "mother" isn't my mother
那个我叫她“妈妈”的人并不是我的母亲
Or even blood but that's how much I love her
And I'm feeling awkward cause the doorbell's from the person that I call HER
那个我一直称作“她”的人在按响了门铃，我感觉很尴尬
Maybe I ain't ready for it...
我可能还没准备好吧……
Shit, what should I wear?
该死，我应该穿什么衣服以见她？
Fuck that, I ain't going down there
算了，我不下去开门了。
I waited over a decade for closure
我等了十几年
Why should I receive it if it might not be something I want to hear
In the mirror is a empty reflection
And in my head are questions I want to ask like, "Where the fuck did you go?"
我有好多问题想要问她，例如”这些年你都去哪了！“
Why did you turn my birthdays to the worst days every year that you didn't show?
尽管你每年都不会出现，但为什么你要让我每年生日那天变成我每年最糟糕的一天呢？
And if you must know, I didn't turn out to be much else
Than a drunk who fell face first to a pile of hell
Took four snuffs of the devil's dust
Ended up with my manager helping me cause I couldn't take a piss by myself
But I did get a record deal
And all my records got that making of a legend feel
And I did have a daughter who I promised that the way that way you made me felt
Is a way she will never, feel
Slip a Benadryl in my cup
Ech, fuck it I'm sickening up
Pit of my stomach clenching, all my muscles stiffening up
I ain't been this nervous since I got jumped
Flick the tip of my J over a surface cover with ashes and junk
Took a pull and sat it down
Put on both of my Chucks
Reach for the door but my hand's sweaty, I'm anxious as fuck
Couldn't even hit the stairs without remembering how many years I was there waiting to see your car pull up
Now you saying she's right there?
现在你告诉我她就在那站着？
Man you saying she's right there?
你告诉我说她就在那站着？
You telling me if I open up this door right here
你现在跟我说假如我打开面前这道门的话
That she'll been standing right there?
我就会看见她站着这门口？
And after all these years am I wrong for having this fear
Of meeting the reflection that was missing in the mirror
Open up the door and then I see her
打开门，我真的看见了她。
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