Jazzy's Tale

I think I've stayed in most of my relationships too long.

I was chasing a love and a life that I grew up seeing with my parents.

So it was more so about an idea in my head than the actual relationship that I had.

Also, I just didn't wanna be alone.

Growing up a brown skin girl, a fat girl, essentially growing up feeling undesirable...

When I got older and I had a man that desired me, it validated me, and made me feel good about myself.

Therefore, the content that the validation brought me was worth the actual pain that the relationship eventually brought,

and it's a sad, scary, and vulnerable place when you need to feel loved so much that you're willing to accept anything.