歌词
I killed myself but I didn't die
我自杀了，但我没死，
She crossed her heart and stuck a needle in her eye
她用心祈祷，然后朝自己的眼睛塞了一针。
She promised me she'll never leave me alone
她曾向我保证她绝对不会离开我，让我孤身一人，
She doesn't sleep she only calls me on the phone
她没法入睡，但只给我打电话，
All night
一打就是一晚上。
I went to school but I didn't learn
我去上学，但我什么都没学，
I touched the fire but I didn't feel the burn
我用双手去触碰火焰，但我没有燃烧的感觉，
Somehow I got desensitized to the world
不知为何我对这个世界不再敏感，
I hate pop music
我厌恶流行音乐，
And I hated the Duke of Earl
而且我讨厌the Duke of Earl这张专辑。（应该是Gene Chandler的，打头阵的是一首名为duke of arl的歌）
Ahh
啊，
I killed myself but I didn't die
我自杀了，但我没死，
Now in the hospital recovering I lie
现在我躺在医院的疗养床上，
None of the visitors can look me in the eye
没有一个造访者能直视我的眼睛，
They say "how are ya?" but they don't apologize
他们问我“感觉怎样？”，但没有一个人感到抱歉。
Oh no
噢不，
And my mum came in
接着我妈进来了，
she was having trouble trying to speak
她艰难地试图开口，
She could see that her boy was some sort of freak
因为她能看出来自己的儿子就像是个神经病。
I killed myself but I didn't die
我自杀了，但我没死，
Now she's my baby
如今她是我的瑰宝，
She's the apple of my eye
她是我目之所及的一切，
She only wants a sensitive guy
她想有个敏感的男生陪着她，
And I've been in and out of my mind
而我刚好想搞清楚我自己脑子里在想什么，
three times
因此变得神经质，已经有三次了。
That's just the way
事情就是如此，
the way I always was
而我一直也是如此。
I go to therapy
我去接受治疗，
But I don't take the drugs
但我拒绝服药，
I try and really look my life in the face
我试图直视我自己的生活，
I think I'm learning that
因为我想我明白了，
there's no way to escape
我无路可逃。
Oh no
噢不，
And the worst part is
但你知道最糟糕的在于，
that I didn't even really care
我根本不关心这些，
It's just to be or not to be
生存还是死亡
And either way I'm only barely there
无论哪种情形，我几乎都不存在。
I killed myself but I'm still around
我自杀了，但我还在这游荡，
I think the living dead will like me better now
我觉得行尸走肉们现在应该更喜欢我了，
I'm gonna socialize
我将会去社交，
I'm gonna go out more
我将会多到户外走走，
I'll be so beautiful with nothing at the core
我会拖着我没有灵魂的躯体，变得靓丽，
Aw Aw
哎。
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