歌词
Yeah, I wish I can numb this pain
我多希望我能对这疼痛麻木不仁
I thought by now I won't complain
可如今想来 也不会再抱怨了
I got the cash with half the fame
一半名利换来的却只有金钱
Lost half my heart and kept the veins
心碎了一半 血管也岌岌可危
We had our spark and lost our flame
我们都保留着余地 也都丢掉了名誉
I tried to talk, had none to say
我试图交涉 可目周无人
I want the love, you never gave
我想要的 是你从未施舍过的爱意
Was hurting me your only aim
难道伤害我 就是你唯一的目的吗
You shot my heart, I bled out hate
你开枪射向我的心 你让我流尽了怨恨
'Cause though you left, the trauma stayed
只因尽管你离开了 可这创伤依旧
I wish the past, would go away
我希冀 这过去的回忆会离去
But I guess gotta live with it
但还是得与之共生
Times changed, I don't feel different
时代变迁 但我与之格格不入
Despite the hurdles in my life I kept my vision alive
尽管生活困难重重 我心里的愿景鲜活如初
I had no one on my side, yet I still did it
我身旁空无一人 也在苦苦坚持
I'm missing thе old me, talking pre-deprеssion
我念想着过去的自己 说着之前的抑郁
Where I felt alive and I had a connection
我所感生命力之处 都会有与我有关
Now I'm dead inside 'cause I lost my direction
现在从内之外地 我死了 因为我丢掉了方向
I don't put my wall down for my own protection
为了自我的保护 我不会把城墙放倒
And I'm tired of people using me
早已厌倦了人们利用我
People lie, what do you believe?
他们在不断撒着谎 而你到底要相信什么
I know people see the truth in me
我知道人们透过真相看到了我
And I know one day you will see
我也相信 某一天 你也会看到
That being true was a tool for me
越来越真实地是 那只是我的工具
I be sticking to myself
我 只 忠 于 自 己
I don't need nobody else
不 需 任 何 外 人
Just relief from this trauma that keeps on ruining me
只是从不断毁灭自我的创伤中 得以解脱
'Cause lately I'm losing sleep
只因最近我难以入眠
And nobody's getting through to me
无人也向我走近
It's 'cause it
都是因为它
Feels like I'm losing sleep
让我感觉彻夜难眠
I want my mind at ease
我想头脑放松
Feels like I'm losing me
这感觉就像我在迷失自己
I wanna find relief
我 想 得 以 解 脱
Feels like I need to breath
感觉就像需要呼吸
I think I'm in too deep, now
如今 我觉得我已陷得太深 无法自拔
I'm drowning in my thoughts
我在自己的思绪里 逐渐沉没
Drowning, by myself
自我地 溺死
I'm drowning, I need help
我在沉没 我需帮救
I'm drowning, they can't tell
我在沉没 他们丝毫不知
I'm drowning, oh
我溺死了
I'm still here and still driven
我仍被动地待在原地
People see me as a meal ticket
人们把我当成饭票
They get nothing, they can deal with it
他们什么也得不到 却会处理
I guess me and them were built different
我想 我与他们 生来不同
I work for whatever I'm given
我工作是为了所得到的
I been living inside of my room since I was fifteen
我从十五岁起就独居一室
Making a bunch a songs hoping somebody gets me
唱了一堆歌 希望有人会懂我
I always felt alone and the feeling is sickening
我总是感觉孤身一人 这种感觉令人作呕
When your expressing your pain and no one is listening
当你表达苦痛时 无人聆听
And life's hard to manage
人生 难以掌控
I feel like I have a disadvantage
感觉我有项缺点
Since my childhood left me hella damaged
我的童年留下了巨大的创伤
I don't know love because I never had it
不知何为爱 因为我从未拥有过
Every relationship I'm in never lasted
陷进的每段关系都不长久
Only toxic woman was all I attracted
只有毒坏的女人被我吸引
I continuously fear having attachments
我一直害怕依恋
Honestly, it was really hard getting past it
老实说 释怀这一切很难
But, it is what it is, you get what you give
但是 事情就是这样 你付出什么就得到什么
I wish I learned quicker, look, I probably did
我希冀我学的更快一点 看吧 我或许做到了
Just didn't accept it
只是没接受
Inside of my mind is where my demons roam
心魔在我脑海深处里游荡
I try to hide 'cause they won't leave me alone
我试图躲避 因为他们不会让我独处
I overthink all of my mistakes on my own
仅仅我自己的过错 就想太多了
I don't know where to go, it's 'cause it
不知要去往何方 皆由它而起
Feels like I'm losing sleep
感觉就像难以入睡
I want my mind at ease
我想放松
Feels like I'm losing me
感觉在迷失自我
I wanna find relief
我想放松
Feels like I need to breath
感觉想要呼吸
I think I'm in too deep, now
感觉陷进这一切太深了
I'm drowning in my thoughts
我自己 也逐渐地沉没在思绪里
Drowning, by myself
独自地 沦陷
I'm drowning, I need help
我在沉沦 急需帮救
I'm drowning, they can't tell
我在沉没 它们毫不知情
I'm drowning, oh
我逐渐地 溺死
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