FEAR.

I don't think I can find a way to make it on this earth

What's up family, yeah it's yo cousin Carl man, just given' you a call man.

I know you been havin' a lot on yo mind lately and I know you feel like ya know people ain't been prayin' for you

but you have to understand this man, that we are just people.

Deuteronomy 28:28 says "The Lord shall smite thee with madness, and blindness, and astonishment of heart".

See family that's why you feel like you feel like you got a chip on your shoulder.

Until you finally get the memo, you will always feel that way

Why God, why God do I gotta suffer?

Pain in my heart carry burdens full of struggle

Why God, why God do I gotta bleed?

Every stone thrown at you restin' at my feet

Why God, why God do I gotta suffer?

Earth is no more, why don't you burn this mufucka?

I beat yo' ass, keep talkin' back

I beat yo' ass, who bought you that?

You stole it, I beat yo' ass if you say that game is broken

I beat yo' ass if you jump on my couch

I beat yo' ass if you walk in this house with tears in your eyes

Runnin' from poopoo and 'prentice

Go back outside, I beat yo' ass lil nigga

That homework better be finished, I beat yo' ass

Yo' teachers better not be bitchin' 'bout you in class

That pizza better not be wasted, you eat it all

That TV better not be loud if you got it on

Them Jordans better not get dirty when I just bought 'em

Better not hear 'bout you humpin' on Keisha's daughter

Better not hear you got caught up, I beat yo' ass

You better not run to your father, I beat yo' ass

You know my patience runnin' thin

I got buku payments to make

County building's on my ass

Tryna take my food stamps away

I beat yo' ass if you tell them social workers he live here

I beat yo' ass if I beat yo' ass twice and you still here

Seven years old, think you run this house by yourself?

Nigga, you gon' fear me if you don't fear no one else

If I can smoke fear away, I roll that motherfucker up

And then I take two puffs

I'm high now, I'm high now

I'm high now, I'm high now

Life's a bitch, pull them panties to the side now

I don't think I can prolly find a way to make it on this earth

I'll prolly die anonymous

I'll prolly die with promises

I'll prolly die walkin' back home from the candy house

I'll prolly die 'cause these colors are standin' out

I'll prolly die because I ain't know Demarcus was snitchin'

I'll prolly die at these house parties, fuckin' with bitches

I'll prolly die from witnesses leavin' me false accused

I'll prolly die from thinkin' that me and your hood was cool

Or maybe die from pressin' the line, actin' too extra

Or maybe die because these smokers are more than desperate

I'll prolly die from one of these bats and blue badges

Body slammed on black and white paint, my bones snappin'

Or maybe die from panic or die from bein' too lax

Or die from waitin' on it, die 'cause I'm movin' too fast

I'll prolly die tryna buy weed at the apartments

I'll prolly die tryna diffuse two homies arguin'

I'll prolly die 'cause that's what you do when you're 17

All worries in a hurry, I wish I controlled things

If I could smoke fear away, I'd roll that mothafucka up

And then I'd take two puffs

I've been hungry all my life

I'm high now, I'm high now

I'm high now, I'm high now

Life's a bitch, pull them panties to the side now, now

When I was 27, I grew accustomed to more fear

Accumulated 10 times over throughout the years

My newfound life made all of me magnified

How many accolades do I need to block denial?

The shock value of my success put bolts in me

All this money, is God playin' a joke on me?

Is it for the moment and will he see me as Job?

Take it from me and leave me worse than I was before?

At 27, my biggest fear was losin' it all

Scared to spend money, had me sleepin' from hall to hall

Scared to go back to Section 8 with my mama stressin'

30 shows a month and I still won't buy me no Lexus

What is an advisor somebody that's holdin' my checks?

Just to fuck me over and put my finances in debt?

I read a case about Rihanna's accountant and wondered

How did the bad girl feel when she looked at them numbers?

The type of shit'll make me flip out and just kill somethin', drill somethin'

Get ill and fill ratchets with a lil' somethin'

I practiced runnin' from fear, guess I had some good luck

At 27 years old, my biggest fear was bein' judged

How they look at me reflect on myself, my family, my city

What they say 'bout me reveal if my reputation would miss me

What they see from me would trickle down generations in time

What they hear from me would make 'em highlight my simplest lines

I'm talkin' fear, fear of losin' creativity

I'm talkin' fear, fear of missin' out on you and me

I'm talkin' fear, fear of losin' loyalty from pride

'Cause my DNA won't let me involve in the light of God

I'm talkin' fear, fear that my humbleness is gone

I'm talkin' fear, fear that love ain't livin' here no more

I'm talkin' fear, fear that it's wickedness or weakness

Fear, whatever it is, both is distinctive

Fear, what happens on Earth stays on Earth

And I can't take these feelings with me so hopefully they disperse

Within fourteen tracks, carried out over wax

Searchin' for resolutions until somebody get back

Fear, what happens on earth stays on earth

And I can't take these feelings with me so hopefully they disperse

Within fourteen tracks, carried out over wax

Wonderin' if I'm livin' through fear or livin' through rap

Damn

Goddamn you

Goddamn me

Goddamn us

Goddamn we

Goddamn us all

Verse two says you only have I known of all the families of the earth,

therefore I will punish you for all your iniquities.

So until we come back to these commandments, until you come back to these commandments,

we're gonna be in this place, we're gonna be under this curse.

Because he said he's gonna punish us, the so-called Blacks, Hispanics,

and Native American Indians, are the true children of Israel.

We are the Israelites according to the Bible.

The children of Israel, he's gonna punish us for our inequities.

For our disobedience because we chose to follow other gods that aren't his son, so the Lord thy God chasten you.

So just like your children, your own son, he's gonna chastise you because he loves you.

So that's why we get chastised, that's why we're in the position we're in.

Until we come back to these laws, statutes and commandments, and do what the Lord said, these curses are gonna be upon us.

We're gonna be at a lower state in this life that we live here in today, in the United States of America.

I love you, son, and I pray for you. God bless you, shalom