Remember It Now

Overnight to the mouth of the canyon

Tapping your shoulder as the new sun breaks

I lose my breath at the view where we’re standing

I’m fearing this fleeting moment might fade

We spent the weekend sleeping outside of Walmarts

Parking your car as my seat leans back

You tap my shoulder and pull up your Carhart

Look out the window and let out a laugh

I can’t remember the names of those towns

Or any freeways we drove to get down

But I was happy, and that’s how I remember it now

Signed the lease for our tiny apartment

I say tiny but it was just what I wanted

Fashioned furniture out of the cardboard

We used to move from our old place in Hartland

Through the wall I can hear you start crying

It’s my fault and I’m too scared to speak

Tell me to talk and I spend the night trying

You kept me calm till we both fell asleep

I can’t remember why I acted so proud

But you forgave me and gave me new ground

I felt insane and ashamed and knocked down

Well you deserved better and that’s how I remember it now

We found new love in our tiny apartment

I say new but it was still you I wanted

You made me laugh when we danced on the carpet

And we both cried through the tough times and darkness

And I felt light after a slight breaking down

You’ve gotten used to me hanging around

I’m getting used to the way my voice sounds

You made me better, and that’s how I remember it now