Atlas

You were

Only searching for love

Only found it in drugs

Get no love from the world

Get no help from above

And I’m awake on my own

Never sleep in the dark

I think I’m losing myself

I think I’m falling apart

I think you’re crying for help

What am I gonna do?

I would help if I could

I think you know that it’s true

And it wouldn’t be hard

If we’d been friends for a year

But a decade and a half

I just wish you were here

And now we’re 13 and you’re up around it

And now we’re 16 and you’re all about it

And now we’re 23, you can’t live without it

I hope you live to see 30 but I ****ing doubt it

So I lie and say that I don’t give a **** about it

I grab anothеr bottle and I ****ing down it

Don’t let them see the way I feel on some poker shit

I’m just tryna heal, quit telling me to get over it!

Yeah, there ain’t no way of getting over this except for separation

I’ll find a way to handle it, I'm fighting hesitation

Cause I know you've faced abandonment

Couldn’t watch you becoming a picture on my mantle, shit

We both know that’s how it’s gonna end

Stumbling around ODing on kolonipin

And that was four years ago, it’s only gotten worse since

I told you it would kill you if you ever ****ed with heroine

We haven’t talked in year, I hope you get better

From I what I hear you’re barely keeping yourself together

You got a couple homies hooked, you ****ing trendsetter

**** my ex and expect me to say that it’s whatever?

Look, it’s comforting to know you’re still alive

I hope you turn it around, I hope you live your life

Just know I understand it, I never wondered why

I just miss my friend, he’s been gone for a long time