Cronus

Breaking down in an airport bathroom

And I can’t wait to leave

When I get home I’m turning off my phone

So no one can find me

I’m sick of these words, I’m sick of your games

We said we’d improve, we said that we’d change

But nothing ever goes right these days

You’re acting plastic, go move to LA

Or give me one ****ing reason to stay

I’m sick of your God I won’t ****ing pray

Signed a **** deal, can’t even get paid

So **** what I feel, I made it his way

And I can’t pull myself up out

Of this hole that I dug myself

I tried so hard to play my role

But I hate everything now that

They’ve got me under control

Can’t breath or decide what I’m doing

Name the pain and I’ve probably been through it

I'm an unpleasant person

I ****ing deserve this

Don’t care if you hate me, I like being worthless

Devoid of all purpose, I’m stupid and nervous

I don’t trust the process, I’m tanking and wordless

There is nothing to say, my naivete

Lost the life that I had, now I’m losing my place

I’m paralyzed just stuck in stasis

Suicide on my mind on a daily basis

'Cause I hate myself, I’m the loosest cannon

No mental health, all hope abandoned

No sense of self, no hope for ransom

Life’s hopeless now and I can’t stand it

Couldn’t hurt myself this well if I planned it

It burns like hell, I thought that I ran ****

And I can’t pull myself up out

Of this hole that I dug myself

I tried so hard to play my role

But I hate everything now that

They’ve got me under control

Process complex emotions

**** that, where the blunt?

Wavy as oceans

Pour some of that codeine potion

I’m not heartless, my heart’s just broken

Now I'm lost inside my mind

I hate the way I stay deprived of joy

I hate this life

I’m not alright

I’m not the type to stay quiet

I’d rather die than live the rest of my life this way

And real ****, there’s really nothing left to say

About problems that won’t end or go away

Or pretend that everything will be okay

I’m an imprint, all I do it's take up space

Dissident the gulag is where I stay

Music pays my rent, want to stay that way

Lost all resolve when I sold my soul

I hate everything, I’m under control