Flowers by the Bed

I'd watch the furniture dance slowly,

as you dragged it around the room

Unaware of my attention,

you were alone for all you knew

But in the moments

when the analgesia would briefly fade

I could collocate the words your body spoke;

you were always so afraid

Your hands would shake

as you rearranged flowers by the bed

I heard visitors pass comments,

I looked well, or so they said

And every morning,

as the sunlight slowly filtered through the shades

You'd awake,

disappointed by me sleeping through the day

And it pains me knowing

that you were taking time out of your life

To make sure that I was still on the medication

that made me stay when I didn't want to

And you always say you're not,

but I know you're disappointed

When you visit and the doctor tells you

that I've stopped talking again

It's just when I had no one,

I had depression

It's the only constant in my life

that I could depend on

Your hands would shake

as you rearranged flowers by the bed

I heard visitors pass comments,

I looked well, or so they said

And every morning,

as the sunlight slowly filtered through the shades

You'd awake,

disappointed by me sleeping through the day