Sabrina

I woke up from a deep sleep

I must have had a nightmare

But I really cannot remember

My heart was beating out of my chest

And I was cold, I must of let the window crack

Funny, 5th of September

And the winter's coming back

The house is unusually quiet

And I'm wondering where Sabrina's at

By this time at eight o'clock

She would have been pullin' on my blanket

Saying daddy "I want some cereal"

Wondering where her mommy's at

My door is wide open

I can hear the breeze hit the curtains

Wind chime hangin' on the front porch singing

Sabrina must be asleep

I pull back the sheets

Get up and walk to her room in the hall

Not a peep not a sound not at all

The anxiety of a father is settin' in

As I turn the corner to her room

Her Mickey Mouse blanket's on the floor

She isn't in the bed

I take a deep breath, put my hand on my head

Relax

It's a game of hide and seek

She's in the closet I know it

I open the door

Gotcha!

She isn't there

The faint sound of the television from downstairs

Is playing some cartoons

She's on the couch of course

How did I oversleep?

Baby girl why didn't you come wake up daddy?

Nodded response

Fear turned to frustration

Sabrina, answer me

'Brina, this isn't funny

I ran to the couch, she's not there

I'm startin' to panic and I'm lookin' up everywhere

Guest rooms, bath rooms, cabinets

Under the tables, the attic

Wait a minute oh god no

I know she wouldn't go outside

We live so far back in the woods

She wouldn't dare

It's too scary for a little girl just to go bye-bye

I'm trying to escape my mind's eye

But my imagination is runnin' wild

At this point I'm talkin' to god

"Please lord

Please I'm scared help me find my child"

I run to the basement (Sabrina!)

Sweat beads on my hands

Pacin', thinkin', pacin', thinkin'

Turn my face in

The screen door to the backyard's ajar

I run to the swingset

Swingset? No

Sandbox? No

God dammit Sabrina where'd you go?

There's a trail to a pond that I take her to everyday

Maybe she's down there

I run down the trail it's about 100 yards

We usually hang out on the pier

And as I get close in

Everything moves slow motion

Her little white shirt on the surface of the water

She was there, lifeless floating (Oh my god)

The pain I can't explain I couldn't see anything

I ran to the water

God is this really my daughter?

I picked her up, she was heavy

I held her tight in my arms

I took her out of the pond

I laid her down on the grass

I couldn't breath I gasped

Givin' her CPR, she wasn't respondin' to it

My phone in my pocket

My hands are shakin'

My vision's blurry

9-1-1 , send an ambulance in a hurry

But it was too late

No tellin' how long she wasn't breathing

Her skin was the color purple

Her lips were ice cold

She must have fell of the pier

Reachin' for her teddy bear

She tried to get out she got wood under her nails

God what did you do to us?

What have we done? I say my prayers at night

Haven't I been a good son?

What did you to do my baby?

She's mine now give her back

You don't deserve her if you let her die like that!