head vs. wall

My head's against the wall again, and I don’t bother

Checking on my phone at all

Don’t wanna try love again,

'Cause the scars run too deep

And I can’t ever sleep as it is

You have your new friends, and I’m happy for that

Got your whole life ahead,

Hope it’s good, I’ll be glad

And lately I just stare and reflect on my past

Wonder how my life got so far off the tracks

Blade against my wrist again, and it’s been harder

Trying to be sober at all

The future makes me scared as ****,

'Cause the past ****** me up

And I think I’m just better alone

Isolate myself again, and I don’t bother

Trying to get better at all

It’s just a lie I tell my friends,

So they don’t have to fret

'Til I'm laid down to rest at the end at the end

My head's against the wall again, and I don’t bother

Checking on my phone at all

Don’t wanna try love again,

'Cause the scars run too deep

And I can’t ever sleep as it is