Heart Attack

[Intro]

(Knife crime is at a near record high

With more than forty blade offenses every day in London)

(At a youth club in South London, not far from where someone was stabbed

Less than twenty-four hours ago

He outlined a direct link between violent crimes, social exclusion and austerity

A study by City Hall found that London has seen an increase of 71%

In victims of serious youth violence since 2012

The Mayor says this is linked to an increase in poverty

With the highest rates of violence taking place in come of the poorest boroughs)

[Verse]

Look, I bet them boys think I'm panickin'

Check what my young Gs are carrying

His blade same length as a javelin

I don't know about B-ball or what's happenin'

But know that it's fukked if he's travellin' and we see him

I can't lie, I was depressed at phases

I was 19 when the team nearly left him faceless

Hopin' that we never left no traces

You know when you're so damn tired in your house

But you can't sleep cah you got pendin' cases

I used to love temptin' fate, but now it's temptin' faces

For half my career I was part of that

My best friend got a burner and it's lookin' like an artifact

Put it in your puffer or your Prada hat

Like fukk panic, that's a heart attack

Yeah, it's like life's so fukked in the time that were in

We're fightin' the world and we're fightin' within

Somali dad just ran away from a war

Now his son's in a war, that's the cycle we're in

I know n1ggas that didn't do time in the bin

That have never had freedom of mind, are you sick?

'Round here main way to provide for your kin

Is in a flick blade, little push-bike, and a sim

In London, a place where it's nicer to live

Is only five minutes out from the guys on a strip

Where man make yay work

Heard he a soldier

I know that n1gga hasn't got balls like Grey Worm

As I grow older, change of perspective

I gotta stay loyal to my girl, that's the trait she was blessed with

Restaurants, raves with my bredrins

Life's too short, so we gotta turn up

Man talk on my ting for the 'Gram, it's intrusive

I never really thought about taking a life

Till I found out my ex-girl's dad is abusive

I felt how I coulda be a man and not do sht?

I'm on the way there now and I don't wanna lose it

But fightin' her battles only hurtin' the girl

How can I protect her from the world

When I couldn't even protect her from myself?

On my grandmother's grave, sh1t happens again

I put a knife through a family friend

Most the women that I know had sh1t happen to them

So innocent 'til guilty ain't somethin' that I have to respect

I think back to my youth and I was so ungrateful

How many of our parents had dreams they abandoned

So they could put food on the table

Intelligent, worthy and able

That's somebody's parent

You know?

And that affected the way that I see sh1t

Nightclub toilet, you peed on the seat

'Cause you don't know how it feels when your mum's gotta clean sh1t

And her boss treats her like she don't ever mean sh1t

And she gotta wait for the bus in the rain and it's freezin'

And Miss said that you won't ever be sh1t

And you don't wanna cry about dad but you need him

I grew up so fukked, but I didn't even deep it

I'm numb to the feelin' of grievin'

And man gettin' birded

African mums on the floor just screamin'

It's mad cah I try so hard

Death's gotta be easy cah life's so hard

I was 12 wishin' that I was a white man, hard

Cah if I was then they probably wouldn't life mans dargs

I was dead broke, fam, I couldn't swipe man's card

And time might pass, but I still gotta stay with it

It wasn't his beef, but I see him try claimin' it

That's why he caught a bullet with another man's name on it

Now he can't do leg day or put strain on it

Every time you hear me freestyle I put pain in it

l used to wonder does God have favourites?

Touch me it's dangerous

I wouldn't play with it

'Cause you can go sleep and have a different type of wake for it

I miss my dargs, unstable

You violate Chris, then rah I turn Chris Benoit

Have him hit from far, nah

Fill him up with bricks and glass, nah

My young Gs will grip, then blast

Have you tried in the street? Fukk findin' my feet

I could ride, but I'm better when I'm ridin' a beat

My emotions are peak, it ain't a sign of defeat or the weak

I woulda ex3cute you,then cried in my sleep

Dropped just two racks and told him buy the machine

I'm Lebron in Miami, I provide for the heat

God strike me if I'm lyin', I ain't cryin' in this beef

Unless a tear's comin' tatted on the side of my cheek

I provide for my peeps, the Lamb' white in the seats

So I'm literally a wolf disguised in a sheep

You have five figure dreams, I have five figure sleep

Five hours more than enough time that I need

Man want a fair fight, but I ain't on it when we see him

Fukk honour, this revolver is onomatopoeic

Let it stut-tut-tut-tut-tutter when you see him

Free Scalez, free C and free my n1ggas till I see 'em

I wouldn't wanna be him

My old Gs roamin', I don't need a colosseum

You see it?

So I'm playin' it good

Let hood politics stay in the hood

Fukk the internet

You see, this new generation, they're Insta' beefin'

And I ain't into speakin'

When I ducked down, I had him runnin' in the lifts

Like he missed a meetin'

There's no good reason to risk your freedom

The yutes dem snitchin' and bitches sneakin'

She don't wanna talk 'bout friendship

She just wanna deal with the pipe like I'm fixin' leakin'

And sleep with a legend like Chrissy Teigen

Where I'm from the word "life" has a different meanin'

Man smile in your face but them n1ggas schemin'

Try involve me in a flaky dealin'

Sistine Chapel, I'ma paint the ceilin'

I been violated and I hate the feelin'

That's why nowadays man hates the preachin'

We smile in the visit cah we ain't defeated

The Supreme Court's where my mates appealin'

I can't breed that girl, that's torture

South London, it's just slags on a corner

And influencers tryna bag them a baller

She a gold digger, I can tell from her aura

The socials say princess, she a pauper

When it's time for it, need more for my daughter

Call me a talker

But man are gettin' lined like lambs in a slaughter

It's life-threatening, I can tell from the borer

Cut through a n1gga like a knife through flora

Feds got the guys on a case and they stalk us

It's a conspiracy like tin foil hats and a new world order

Touch me, you better have a life insurer

Bloodthirsty, I got sharks in the water

And, trust me, I know a killer well, no orca

Have you ever seen a nightmare brought to life?

Where I'm from you get cheffed on a normal night

Man talk on my name but it's porkie pies

I really put it in a prick like a porcupine

Little bro wanna save for a 45

Go board a flight

There's more to life

Youts on the M6 all the time

We don't need TFL for a northern line

All the best politicians been taught to lie

Where do they buy ****** when they're snorting white

Are their dealers safe or on the border line?

It's ironic cah we don't know where to draw the line

Man see Blue Story, they're mortified

Man see Scarface and it's glorified

'Cause when you're black everything gets scrutinised

That why they call it Urban, it gets euphemised

South London, man are gettin' euthanised

I see a yout's demise, I wasn't too surprised

He got soaked but his right hand scuba dived

Don't die by a sword that you used to shine

You can drown for your king, you don't know about Ophelia

Cah we got iron, I don't know about anaemia

I took the hard road, we don't know about the easier

One bag of whores and paraphernalia

When ends gettin' sticky had a flicky with Amelia

I mean Olivia

This ain't Libya

This ain't Syria

You act sillier, we let it seep in your skin like Nivea

Who wants to be a millionaire? I won it

Never done a game show or trivia

I done Wandsworth, Erlestoke visitor

I done Spring Hil, Grendon

Swinfen, Whitemoor

Swaleside, Brixton visitor

I done M-way trips, done sh1t that I wish I never did

Becah I could have been a prisoner

Is this the sh1t that appeals to the listeners?

Road ain't no amazing life

The ends full of snakes and jail's just a waste of time

I tell my young Gs take your time

Fukk jazz, you can really see a major nine

Yo, I'm so ashamed of how I used to get figures

Man sell you a dream like the road ting's lit

And then he leave out the parts where you're burying your n1ggas

Or in jail wonderin' who's puttin' dick inside your missus

I'm so fukkin' determined

I was in intensive care when I was born

Mummy fell down the stairs

Whether I was gonna live or not was suttin uncertain

I use the word "fell' with the commas inverted

You see growin' up I had it far from perfect

But nobody did, so I'm a normal person I gotta be grateful

We all have demons and all see angels

Or maybe it's me

A black yout's more than a face on a screen

A number on a laptop or name on a sheet

We got stories to tell and got places to be

From my heart that's the makin' of me

[Outro]

I was really about to lose

I sat on my hands

I struggled 'cause I didn't want to suffer again

I just wanted, didn't wanna make my son upset

I went to [?], they sent me back

I tried so much, we have no strength

I was in detention counsel for months, I didn't give up

I was not even twenty when I left Africa

I was determined to survive

I was determined to survive

I didn't have anybody, nobody was ready to help me

You was six weeks old, this is when we left from Africa

I was on the streets for three years

Nobody let me eat, nobody in this nation

I couldn't pay my rent, gettin' deported

I didn't give up, I carried on everywhere