Lost

*Humming vocals*

I was never the kid beggin' for help

Always thought I could do everything better myself

So I kept to myself

And age 9, 10, 11 and 12 I started developing remedies for my mental health

I would write a verse here and there when I was angry or sad just to clear the air

But as time went on, it was weird and rare

I'm frustrated, this wasn't why I appeared to bear

See rap was my reason, Addictive Personality added to the fact that I lacked what I needed

A sense of purpose, happiness even

And the more I worked, the more support I had been receivin'

Made new friends that came with the cause

Stayed out of trouble everyday writing songs

Eventually gained fans who were craving it all, huh

And here I am contemplating it all, I'm lost

Lost

I wake up and ask where has my time gone?

So I go back to sleep

And because I am young, I'll do anything for the things that I love

'Cause baby I'm lost

And everything I got is clearly a blessin'

But my life is solely music, after school I disappear in a second and I fear where I'm headed

They tell me to be a kid, don't waste these years, you'll regret it

But I'm caught in this damn route

Of who can be the product to stand out?

I might be

And I'm confident hands down

Nothing will happen with this unless I work the hardest I can now

So someone teach me how to balance this

Last week I stepped back and acted as a kid

But they were opportunities I had to pass up quick

Plus I'm late for collabs and I'm lookin' like an asshole

And I'm battlin' myself, I ain't choose this match!

It's summer now, I got time, but what the **** am I gon' do with that?

And while I think on it, I'll look at my inboxes

And see kids talkin' like "where the new music at?"

I'm lost

Lost

I wake up and ask where has my time gone?

So I go back to sleep

And because I am young, I'll do anything for the things that I love

'Cause baby I'm lost

I feel out of the loop

I feel like everybody's swimmin' in the fountain of youth while I'm in my house in the booth

My mind's crowded with views from the past

Feels like yesterday my best friend and I had biked to town to get food

Now he's smokin' and he's drinkin' and he's drivin' with the same pack

Who hated on me when they found out that I made raps

And there's this girl that I kinda like now

And I heard she's into me, but I ain't got the time to find out

I'm tryna pass and forget her

Tryna not think about how many times I'm ditching dad over dinner

Tryna not think about when I promised the calls to grandma

Mom said it won't be long 'til she's gone

What's my excuse?

I'm preoccupied with this 8-inch blue baby bottle mic?

And I would take a break if I didn't think about failure more than my success

But I only got one life I can't afford losin' again

I'm lost

Lost

I wake up and ask where has my time gone?

So I go back to sleep

And because I am young, I'll do anything for the things that I love

'Cause baby I'm lost

Lost

I'll do anything for the things that I love

But baby I'm lost

Lost

'Cause I'm lost