Just a Couple More Words

First off, I'm sorry to my grandma

I know I said I'd call

I just read your birthday card and hung it on the wall

You are a shining star in my life and I haven't appreciated it

I value our relationship

You are a queen, look at that mirror like you are flawless

I hope you move to Mass so I can see you more often

And we can spend more time together, yeah, I hope you live forever

Thank you for your letter

And I'm sorry to my sister, I know I was supposed to give you a time that you can call me

I saw the picture that you posted up on Twitter, it made me laugh

I was ashamed I never got back to you, that's why I didn't tweet back

I know you're going through a lot, and I respect you

You're like the smartest person who I've ever met too

So, I hope college is going well, I hope you're learning stuff

Just know I care for you so much, I love you

And I ain't got no excuses

I've been selfish, I've been foolish, I'm just trying not to lose myself

And all my talking has been useless

Said that I'm caring and I'm humble but I barely even prove myself

To anyone I ever hurt, to anyone who deserved just a couple more words

I'm sorry

I've been devoured by the power, I'm a coward

I'm through with myself

I'm sorry to my close friends at college who left the state

I promised y'all I would stay in touch, and I felt ashamed

You were my only friends when I didn't have many

I've taken you for granted, recently I've been feeling empty

Steven you've been my closest friend ever since I moved over here

And Andrew you don't even know how much you've helped my whole career

I'd give it all to you dudes, listen that's for Stu too

Hit me when you're back so we can kick it like we used to

And I'm sorry to my ex

I hope you know that when I heard how my song affected you I was so sad

You're one of the only girls I ever really bonded with

I was self-conscious and you were the one who gave me confidence

So thank you

And I ain't gonna lie

I still get jealous when I see you with other guys

I love the time we spent together

Some of the only time I spent as a kid

I just wish it didn't end like it did

I'm sorry

And I ain't got no excuses

I've been selfish, I've been foolish, I'm just trying not to lose myself

And all my talking has been useless

Said that I'm caring and I'm humble but I barely even prove myself

To anyone I ever hurt, to anyone who deserved just a couple more words

I'm sorry

I've been devoured by the power, I'm a coward

I'm through with myself

I'm sorry to my mom and dad, I've been embarrassed

'Cause I barely even been a kid, but that don't mean you ain't been parents

I am beyond blessed to have you guys

So supportive with everything, so generous with all the time you sacrificed

Mom I'm sorry that I rush our conversations

Acting like I don't got the patience, that is not how momma raised us

Dad I'm sorry, often you feel left in the dark

I should keep you more updated with connections I start

And I'm sorry to my fans, I'm sorry in advance

If a song or if a chant don't meet all of your demands

My whole life I've dealt with anxiety and feeling cornered

And nothing gets me more anxious than a frustrated supporter

I wish I could respond to all your messages

I wish I could do all your collabs, I wish we could have a friendship

I wish I could fly you out just to show how much it means that you rock with me

I hope that this is my only apology

And I ain't got no excuses

I've been selfish, I've been foolish, I'm just trying not to lose myself

And all my talking has been useless

Said that I'm caring and I'm humble but I barely even prove myself

To anyone I ever hurt, to anyone who deserved just a couple more words

I'm sorry

I've been devoured by the power, I'm a coward

I'm through with myself