ghost in the shell

remember them days i was hitting licks

just to keep all the lights on?

whole time they was saying i wasn't shit

but at least we survived, huh?

16 when i dropped out of highschool

when all of our bills was past due

promise i'd get us a bag soon

so i did what i did cuz i had to

if you looked at me wrong i was bad news

kept a tool i was ready to use it

demon mode we on go, i was used to

living a life i was ready to lose, shit

then i thought about my mama

if i kept it up then we wouldn't

have a roof and i knew it

so i swore to myself to stop with the **** shit

and focused on making the music

stayed up every night just to make it work

for better or worse

laid up every night thinking about my worth

and repressing the hurt

started believing that happiness was

something i ain't deserve

so i made it a goal to flex on the world

before i leave this earth

i done bid farewell to all the

feelings that i bottled

ghost inside a shell

after all these pills i swallowed

if you couldn't tell by now

i ain't no ****ing idol

this a cry for help-

think i've always been a lost soul

dealt with all this trauma

that i bottled up with bottles

knowing it won't help

is the hardest pill to swallow

wanna ask myself- have i

always been this hollow?

don't know where to go,

yeah i've always been a lost soul

hollup wait a minute

fast forward now i'm winning

still i feel so vacant, damn

all of these bands i been spending

both of my wrist probably 20

still getting drunk off the henny

pockets are full but i'm empty

and that's on depression

when i'm under pressure,

i tend to do better

but all of this stress

will leave me on the stretcher

my friends wanna help me

but i never let em

if anyone tries them

i'll probably kill them

that goes for my shorty

and everyone close to me

on my life i'm willing to die

and if i do, it's no need to cry

i'm with my brothers on the other side

nah i'm trippin

maybe i just really miss em

but i promised to keep on living

ain't done with my mission

until i'm getting these millions

and let em know who do it the best

never fold, keep my foot on they necks

stay focused on getting a check

i be praying that they never test me cuz...

i done bid farewell to all the

feelings that i bottled

ghost inside a shell

after all these pills i swallowed

if you couldn't tell by now

i ain't no ****ing idol

this a cry for help-

think i've always been a lost soul