Oceans & Engines

Saturday sunset

We’re lying on my bed with five hours to go

Fingers entwined and so were our minds cryin, 'I don’t want you to go'

You wiped away tears but not fears under the still and clear indigo

You said, ‘Baby don’t cry, we’ll be fine, you’re the one thing I swear I can’t outgrow’

My mother said the younger me was a 'Pretending' prodigy

Well nothing, then, much has changed

Cause while you’re wolfing down liquor, my soul it gets sicker

But I’m stickin' to the screenplay, gotta say I’m okay

But answer this babe:

How is it now that somehow you’re a stranger?

You were mine just yesterday

I prayed the block in my airway dissipates and instead deters your airplane’s way

But heaven denied destiny decried

Something beautiful died too soon

But I’m letting go

I’m givin’ up the ghost

But don’t get me wrong

I’ll always love you, that’s why

I wrote you this very last song

I guess this is where we say goodbye

I know I’ll be alright

Someday I’ll be fine

But just not tonight

Plunging into all kinds of diversions like blush wine and sonorous soirées

But even with gin and surgin’ adrenaline

I see you’re all that can intoxicate

Oceans and engines, you’re skilled at infringin' on great love affairs

'Cause now my heart’s home

All I’ve known is long gone and 10 thousand miles away

And I’m not okay

But I’m letting go

I’m givin’ up the ghost

But don’t get me wrong

I’ll always love you and that’s why

I wrote you this very last song

I guess this is where we say goodbye I know I’ll be alright

But just not-

Tonight was the first time

I stared into seas of beguiling sepia two years ago

And the first time I learned real world superpowers

Lived in three words and could revitalize my fraying bones

What do you do when your pillar crumbled down

You’ve lost all solid ground

Both dreams and demons drowned

And this void’s all you’ve found and doubts light it aglow?

I have so many questions

But I’m pouring them into the ocean and I’m starting up my engine

And I’m letting go

I’m givin’ up your ghost

It’s come to a close

I marked the end with this last song I wrote

I’m letting go

This is the last falsetto

I’ll ever sing to you my great

Lost love