Ill Mind Of Hopsin 7

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Ill Mind of Hopsin 7 - Hopsin

Yo, fuck anybody I might alarm

Life is a tour, I sit and ride along

Taking some notes

and then I write the song

I'm staring down the road my life has gone

Is this where I belong?

Is it wrong to not believe in right and wrong?

My mental state is fucking me up

And I pry the problem

while asking you for some answers

But we don't have that type of bond

That my desires gone with the way

that I've been living lately

If I died right now, you'd turn the fire on

Sick of this bullshit, niggas call me a sellout

Cause I hopped on Christianity

so strongly then I fell out

Now I'm avoiding questions like a scared dog

with his tail down

Feeling so damn humiliated

because they looking

at me like I'm hellbound

What story should I tell now?

I'll just expose the truth

I'm so close to the fucking edge,

I should be close to you

But who the fuck are You?

You never showed the proof

And I'm only fucking human yo,

what am I supposed to do?

There's way too many different religions

with vivid descriptions

Begging all fucking men

and women to listen

I can't even beat my dick

without getting convicted

These ain't wicked decisions,

I got different intentions

I been itching to get it,

I've been given assistance

But the whole fucking system is twisted

Now I'm dealing with this backlash

because Marcus isn't a Christian

And I've been told

that my sinful life is an addiction

But I can't buy it,

it's just too hard to stand beside it

I need an answer and humans can't provide it

I look at the Earth and Sun

and I can tell a genius man designed it

It's truly mind blowing,

I can't deny it

Is heaven real? Is it fake?

Is it really how I fantasize it?

Where's the Holy Ghost at?

How long it take Man to find it?

My mind's a nonstop tape playing

and I can't rewind it

You gave me a Bible

and expect me not to analyze it

I'm frustrated and you provoked it

I'm not reading that motherfucking book

because a human wrote it

I have a fucking brain, you should know it

You gave it to me to think

to avoid every useless moment

It was a mission that I had to abort

Cause humans be lying

with such an inaccurate source

It's gon' be hard to

put me back on the course

Next Jehovah's Witness

to come on my porch

I swear I'm slammin' the door

A lot of folks believe it though,

but I'm not surprised

Humans are fucking dumb,

still thinkin' that Pac's alive

I ain't trying to take your legacy

and torch it down

I'm just saying: I ain't heard shit

from the horse's mouth

Just sheep always telling stories

of older guys

Who were notarized by you

when you finally vocalized

Now I'm supposed to bow my head

and close my eyes

And somehow let the Holy Ghost arise

Sound's like a fucking Poltergeist

Show yourself and then boom it's done

Every rumor's gone,

I no longer doubt this shit,

you're the One

I'll admit that my sinful ways was stupid fun

And all my old habits can hop onto

of a roof to plunge

I'll donate to a charity that could use the funds

Fuck the club, instead of bitches I'd hang

with a group of nuns

And everyone

that I ran into would know

what I came to do

I wouldn't take a step unless

it was in the name of You

I hate the fact that I have to believe

You haven't been chatting

with me like you did Adam and Eve

And I ain't seen no fucking

talking snake unravel from trees

With an apple to eat,

that shit never happens to me

I don't know if you do or don't exist,

it is driving me crazy

Send your condolences,

this is me reaching to you so don't forget

If hell is truly your pit of fire

and I get thrown in it

I'mma probably regret the fact

that I ever wrote this shit

My gut feeling says it's all fake,

I hate to say it but fuck it,

shit I done lost faith

This isn't a small phase,

my perspective's all changed

My thoughts just keep picking

shit apart all day

And in my mind I make perfect sense

If you aren't real

then all my prayers aren't worth a cent

That would mean

that I could just make up

what my purpose is

And I could just sit in church

and say "fuck" in the services

Man what if Jesus was a facade?

Then that would mean

the government's god

I feel like they've

been brainwashing us with a lot

So much that we don't even notice

that we're stuck in the box

Man everything is "what if",

why is it always "what if"

Planet Earth "what if",

the universe "what if"

My sacrifice "what if",

my afterlife "what if"

Every fucking thing

that deals with you is fucking suspect

I'm fucking done,

I'm fucking done

This is my fucking life

and I'm living it, I'm having fun

If you really care for me,

prove that I need to live carefully

But I'll be damned

if I put my own pleasure aside

for an afterlife that isn't even guaranteed

We are you, and you're us,

stop playing games

My life's all I got,

and heaven is all in my brain

And when I feel I am in hell,

my ideas are what get me through pain

Do as you please,

and I'll just do me,

I'm a human,

I'll stay in my lane

I'll mind