歌词
And I don't wanna live like this
我不想像这样苟活
I'm on my own
但一切都只能靠我自己
And I don't wanna leave right now
我也不想现在就匆匆离开
But I'm all alone
但我始终一人独行
Never thought I'd try suicide
从未想过尝试结束自己的生命
But my mind is a prison
但是我的精神就像一座监狱
I'm peeking through the blinds
我在透过百叶窗窥视外面的世界
And I know my decision will be scrutinized
我知道我的决心将会受到审查
But you can't judge a man until you looking through his eyes
但是在你透过我的眼睛看到我的内心之前你不能随意的评判我
Cause they wanna call me selfish
因为他们想叫我利己主义者
Wake up every day the same and I feel helpless
日复一日的在绝望的清晨醒来
Everyone around me telling me life's precious
周围的人都告诉我生命十分昂贵
But all I feel is pain so pardon me if I'm skeptic
但我总沉浸在痛苦中，所以请原谅我如果我是个无神论者，没有耶稣的指引
I've been feeling sick
我将厌倦生活的一切
Sick of feeling worthless
厌倦自己是个废物
Sick of acting like every day's been so perfect
厌倦装作自己每天过的很好
Sick of feeling pain
厌倦自己只会陷入痛苦无法自拔
Fake smiles on the surface
却每天带着虚假的微笑面具
Sick of waking up knowing I don't have a purpose
厌倦每日醒来却对生活感到迷茫
And I don't wanna die, but I know it's for the best
我不想英年早逝，但我知道在传奇中陨落是最好的结局
Trying to find peace, but I know there's nothing left
想要寻找一片净土，但我知道我留不下任何足迹
Only time I feel bliss is the moment of my death
我觉得天赐之福就是在我去往天堂的那一瞬间
Maybe I can finally smile as I take my last breath
在我喘最后一口气的时候我会面带笑容
Try to tun a page, I'm stuck in the same chapter
想要翻到新的篇章，却还一直徘徊在原地
Searching for some love, I ain't finding what I'm after
想要寻找真爱，却怎么也找不到
Swear these damn thoughts controlling me like a cancer
咒骂着这些像病毒缠绕着我的消极思想
What's the point of life, I can never find the answer
生活的真谛到底是什么？我一直都没找到答案
Damn
艹
And I don't wanna make my mother cry
我不想让我的妈妈为我流泪
But all the pain I've been feeling is being multiplied
但是我一直承受着多重的痛苦
So when she finally comes to terms that her son has died
当我妈妈最终知道我的死讯之时
Tell her I'm looking for happiness on the other side
请代我转告她我去极乐世界寻找解脱了
And I don't wanna live like this
我不想像这样苟活
I'm on my own
但一切都只能靠我自己
And I don't wanna leave right now
我也不想现在就匆匆离开
But I'm all alone
但我始终一人独行
Cause I don't wanna feel this pain
因为我不想再尝试痛苦的滋味
I'd rather die right now
我宁愿现在就去往天堂
I just wanna be okay
我也想就像什么事都没发生一样
Oohohoh
呜
Wait, before you make your decision
在你做好决定之前请等一下
Take a second, put yourself in your family's position
请花一点时间站在你家人的角度
Know you feeling like death is the only way but it isn't
我知道你觉得死亡是解脱的最好方式，但其实并不是
Know the pains hard but I swear it's just here to visit
我知道你正经历着无法承受的痛苦但我向你发誓这都会一晃而过
So please
所以求求你
Don't do it, I can promise that it doesn't help
不要做傻事，我能向你保证那样做无济于事
The pain'll pass, you're passing the pain to someone else
痛苦终将消去，你正在将痛苦传递给别人
You got a beautiful soul, Don't make em suffer
你有纯净的灵魂，别让它承受煎熬
I know you'll get through, I know that you got it covered
我知道你会将他们翻篇
You're made special, kind loving and gentle
你生来特别，温柔而善良
Even if you can't see just know that you got potential
尽管你现在还看不到自己有巨大的潜力
I know you suffer through the day tryna hold composure
我知道你在煎熬之中仍然想要保持镇定
But god gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers
但是上帝给他强大的躯体注入了坚韧的意志就像战争中的士兵
I don't wanna see the day that you fall apart
我不想看到你那些行尸走肉般的日子
So keep pushing, a fighter I know that's who you are
所以不断奋进，我知道你是个强大的人
Even know you feel like you live with a broken heart
尽管你带着心碎与憔悴生活
Just know the darkest nights make the brightest stars
永远要明白黑暗之后必定将迎来黎明
And I promise it gets better with time
我向你保证时间的流逝会抹平一切
I know it doesn't feel like it but depression it lies
我知道他不是你想像的那样，但是他也会令你沮丧
You deserve much more so just sever the ties
你本应该得到更多所以断了那些愚蠢的念想
Between those toxic thoughts and you're intelligent mind
用你聪明的心智去对抗那些有害的想法
I know it's tough when you're battling depression
我知道你和抑郁作斗争是很艰难的
It's hard to fake a smile with the pain that you're suppressing
很难心里痛苦却强颜欢笑
Your mind plays tricks and it got you second guessing
你的大脑总会愚弄你这让你总是对周围的世界产生怀疑
But people care about you and need the feel of your presence
但是周围的人都关心你，希望你能在他们的生活中留下印记
You got family they love you try to remember
你好好回忆，你还有你的家人，他们一直爱着你
I know you think you're nothing but in the mind you're a treasure
我知道你认为自己一无是处，其实在内心深处你是一箱宝藏
Times get rough and I know you feeling the pressure
时间的流逝会让你感觉生活的艰难 ，我知道你一直倍感压力
But I've been through it too and I know that it gets better
但是我也经历过这一切，时间会告诉你一切会变得更好
And I don't wanna live like this
我不想像这样苟活
I'm on my own
但一切都只能靠我自己
And I don't wanna leave right now
我也不想现在就匆匆离开
But I'm all alone
但我始终一人独行
Cause I don't wanna feel this pain
因为我不再想要承受这种痛苦
I'd rather die right now
我宁愿现在就去往天堂
I just wanna be okay
我也想就像什么事都没发生一样
Oohohoh
呜
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