So Many Tears

"So Many Tears"

I shall not fear no man but God

Though I walk through the valley of death

I shed so many tears (if I should die before I wake)

Please God walk with me (grab a nigga and take me to Heaven)

Back in elementary, I thrived on misery

Left me alone I grew up amongst a dyin breed

Inside my mind couldn't find a place to rest

until I got that Thug Life tatted on my chest

Tell me can you feel me? I'm not livin in the past, you wanna last

Be tha first to blast, remember Kato

No longer with us he's deceased

Call on the sirens, seen him murdered in the streets

Now rest in peace

Is there heaven for a G? Remember me

So many homies in the cemetery, shed so many tears

Ahh, I suffered through the years, and shed so many tears..

Lord, I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears

Now that I'm strugglin in this business, by any means

Label me greedy gettin green, but seldom seen

And fuck the world cause I'm cursed, I'm havin visions

of leavin here in a hearse, God can you feel me?

Take me away from all the pressure, and all the pain

Show me some happiness again, I'm goin blind

I spend my time in this cell, ain't livin well

I know my destiny is Hell, where did I fail?

My life is in denial, and when I die,

baptized in eternal fire I'll shed so many tears

Lord, I suffered through the years, and shed so many tears..

Lord, I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears

Now I'm lost and I'm weary, so many tears

I'm suicidal, so don't stand near me

My every move is a calculated step, to bring me closer

to embrace an early death, now there's nothin left

There was no mercy on the streets, I couldn't rest

I'm barely standin, bout to go to pieces, screamin peace

And though my soul was deleted, I couldn't see it

I had my mind full of demons tryin to break free

They planted seeds and they hatched, sparkin the flame

inside my brain like a match, such a dirty game

No memories, just a misery

Paintin a picture of my enemies killin me, in my sleep

Will I survive til the mo'nin, to see the sun

Please Lord forgive me for my sins, cause here I come...

Lord, I suffered through the years (God) and shed so many tears..

God, I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears

Lord knows I.. tried, been a witness to homicide

Seen drivebys takin lives, little kids die

Wonder why as I walk by

Broken-hearted as I glance at the chalk line, gettin high

This ain't the life for me, I wanna change

But ain't no future right for me, I'm stuck in the game

I'm trapped inside a maze

See this Tanqueray influenced me to gettin crazy

Disillusioned lately, I've been really wantin babies

so I could see a part of me that wasn't always shady

Don't trust my lady, cause she's a product of this poison

I'm hearin noises, think she fuckin all my boys, can't take no more

I'm fallin to the floor beggin for the Lord to let me in

to Heaven's door -- shed so many tears

(Dear God, please let me in)

Lord, I've lost so many years, and shed so many tears..

I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears

Lord, I suffered through the years, and shed so many tears..

God, I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears

..........by OG..........