All I Ever Wanted (live)

I can only say these things to you when you're sleeping

I hear the hum from the wires and the sounds of the morning creep in

I lie awake and pretend you can hear me

And you tell me that you're scared that you're turning into your mother

I feel myself turning into my father

So we lie to eachother like they do and say we're so happy

It's easy when you're young and you still want it so badly

I turn over again and I feel my heart beating faster

I stare out the window and I think I might scream

And I could tell you that you're all I ever wanted, dear

I can utter every word you ever hoped to hear

I shudder when I think I might not be here forever, forever, forever

The time we were alone together at the station

You were so quiet like a child and you told me you want to be taken

Just never thought of you as the kind of girl that would do that

And you suddenly seem like some faceless thing in my grasp

And I'd be lying if I said that I didn't find it exciting

Your eyes all wet, your face so warm and inviting

And I could tell you that you're all I've ever wanted, dear

I can utter every word you've ever hoped to hear

I shudder when I think that I might not be here forever, forever, forever

I can tell you that I'm always gonna love you like the virgin bride you were that night

But I'd be lying

Love is defying

All I can think is that it must be a kind of rebellion

To own these fears like soldiers and slay them

I could tell you that you're all I've ever wanted, dear

Through the day while you're breathing, while you're sleeping here

And you wake and you ask me if I'm gonna be here forever, forever, forever

Your face so twisted and your eyes alight

I want to tell you I could save you when you cry at night

But I'll be trying

Love is defying

Won't you stop crying?