Absence

it was only a dream I swear

it did not happen as they tell you

it was just a fantasy

I was not living in that moment

if what I feel is not what I feel

how can I ever know what's real

was I stillborn years ago

and is this absence all I'll know

I had thought that I could be

a part of something more then me

but now I finally understand

this wasn't meant to be

I must suffer this fate

let the chemicals dictate

the face that I show to the crowd

the only life that I'm allowed

to live is a lie

to live is to lie

suffocating in the absence of myself

heaven help me

heaven help me

if you hear me

you know I must suffer this fate