I Wonder

原唱：Gowe 翻唱：椒糖PepperFlow

Uh PepperFlow

This song is dedicated to a very special kind of women

这首歌献给所有的妈妈

For the life-changing decision, and the lifelong efforts…

改变生命的决定，和相伴一生的辛劳

You all deserve love, gratitude and happiness

你们值得这世上所有的爱，感恩和幸福

Her mind was confused with a plus at the tip of the tube

她看见试纸上的加号感到困惑

Sick as she threw up with a cup take a sip of abuse

孕吐中却还要忍受那些痛苦

So she gets nervous cause her man left her

她变得不安起来，因为她的男人离开了她

After the *** and he jets she thought that he loved her

远走高飞了，但是她却以为他爱她

You see shes 18, and shes a bit conscious

这时候的她才十八岁

About her dress and the reflection of her own image

对自己的穿衣打扮和形象都还有些自己的想法

Timid in speech, shes limited given a week

这种事却难以启口，她害怕得躲在家里一个星期都不敢出门

With her tummy blowing up so that people can see

她的肚子越来越大，大到人们都已经显而易见了

But she decides to keep it, said no to abortion

但是她依然决定生下这个孩子

The feet kicks in her stomach comes without a warning

婴儿的脚没有预警地一次又一次地踢她的肚子

She feels the pain though, cause her parents cry

她感受到了疼痛，是因为她的家人在哭泣

And the shame eats her alive when she closed her eyes

她闭上眼睛，感觉羞辱在吞噬着她

Then the day comes, she gives birth to a son

日子终将来临，她生了一个儿子

Kim Sung-Hoon, soon she holds and kisses her love

取名为金星宏（歌曲原唱Gowe的本名），她抱着，亲吻着她的挚爱

Wishing it never ended, taking a mental picture

就让时间定格在这个画面吧

Hoping through her tears that her son would have a better future

她的眼泪中，充满着她的儿子会有一个更好地未来的希望

I wonder if there's a smile on your face

我常遐想，是否有笑容挂在你脸上

Sometimes I miss you and long for your embrace

有时候，我很想念你，也渴望得到你的拥抱

I never could thank you, enough for holding on

我从来没有机会感谢你从未放弃过我

Dear mama mama mama, forever, I’ll hold you in my heart

亲爱的妈妈啊，我会永远把你放在我的心里

So she wonders, what happened to her son next

她常常思考，她的儿子怎么样了呢？

Is there clothes on his back, food on his plate whats the context

他吃得好吗，穿得好吗，过得还好吗

The recollection of the day replays in her mindset

又不断回想起以前的日子

And the ways she would try but just never could forget

她想忘记那些但是却怎么也忘不掉

Well he’s okay, and he resides in the states

现在他过得还好，居住在美国

A needle in space in which rain makes it a beautiful place

在一个有space needle也常常下雨的魅力城市（西雅图）

Embraced by the culture and he’s loved by all the members

他适应了这个地方的文化，也有一群爱他的朋友们

Until he turns 18 and his world get flipped

直到他十八岁那年的一天，他的世界颠倒了过来

He hears that his mom is not actually his and that complications

因为他听说正在抚养他的妈妈并不是他的亲生母亲

Prevented her from having any kids and his real mom

他的养母没有办法生育

Is actually Korean and she had, to give him up for adoption

而他的真正的母亲是在韩国生下他的，然后把他送去领养机构

Cause she was young and was a student

因为那时她还非常的年轻，而且还是个学生

Lost and was confused and, wrestling in the moment

在流言蜚语中迷失，困惑，挣扎

Am I Chinese or Korean? Am I destined in this union?

我是中国人还是韩国人？而我的命运却在美国吗？

And if I am what’s the purpose? I jot it in my verses

这一切的意义何在？我把这些都记在我的歌词里

So I replay it in my mind as I think about you

我不断在脑子里重复想着这些事情，想着你……

I wonder if there's a smile on your face

我常遐想，是否有笑容挂在你脸上

Sometimes I miss you and long for your embrace

有时候，我很想念你，也渴望得到你的拥抱

I never could thank you, enough for holding on

我从来没有机会感谢你从未放弃过我

Dear mama mama mama, forever, I’ll hold you in my heart

亲爱的妈妈啊，我会永远把你放在我的心里

If I could write a letter, and know that you would read it

如果我能写一封信，如果你能看到这封信

I would tell you that I never once in my heart felt hatred

我只想告诉你我在心里从来没有怪过你

Reinstated I would play a song and dance with you

我只想跟你唱一首歌，跟你跳一支舞，如果可以的话

Hold your hand as I thank the Lord for creating you

牵着你的手，然后感谢上苍让你出现了

As strong as you are cause in my mind I can’t fathom

就像你当初我无法想象的那样坚强

The pain and the guilt when all you heard was their gossip

你当时所感受到的那些痛苦和内疚，那些人的流言蜚语

And still you stuck through it, when they called you foolish

虽然他们觉得你是个可笑的傻瓜，你却仍然坚持撑了下来

And with this gift that I possess your probably loved music

我热爱音乐的这个天赋也许就是你给我的吧

I hope you’re doing well, I hope some day you’ll see this

我希望你现在过得很好，我希望将来有一天你可以看见这封信

I hope I mean I really hope that you know Jesus on a deeper level

我希望你能了解上苍对一切命运的安排

Seeking just to know Him better, I hope in perfect timing we can

我希望在一个适合的时间我们可以

See the reason clearer, I hope you’re smiling now

把话说得更清楚明了，但现在我希望你可以微笑

I hope I cross your mind, I hope you never second guess

我希望我能进入你的世界，我希望你可以敞开心扉

If what you did was right, cause I’m so proud of you

我希望你从来不会质疑你的坚守是否有意义，因为我为你感到骄傲

I love and admire you, so after all these years this is my way of telling you

我爱你，也很崇拜你，这就是我这些年来走过的路，请让我对你诉说

I wonder if there's a smile on your face

我常遐想，是否有笑容挂在你脸上

Sometimes I miss you and long for your embrace

有时候，我很想念你，也渴望得到你的拥抱

I never could thank you, enough for holding on

我从来没有机会感谢你从未放弃过我

Dear mama mama mama, forever, I’ll hold you in my heart

亲爱的妈妈啊，我会永远把你放在我的心里

I wonder if there's a smile on your face

我常遐想，是否有笑容挂在你脸上

Sometimes I miss you and long for your embrace

有时候，我很想念你，也渴望得到你的拥抱

I never could thank you, enough for holding on

我从来没有机会感谢你从未放弃过我

Dear mama mama mama, forever, I’ll hold you in my heart

亲爱的妈妈啊，我会永远把你放在我的心里