Portals (feat. ESAE)

A sense of calmness lands on my shoulders and palms

While the storms of my life gets me i sneak to the back empty

and I gently, pull the door and glide through with a ‘sup Eddy’

This club’s ready i feel the notes falling like confetti

I order my drink normal except i add rocks to dilute it

I take a sip and then stop to talk shop to one of the

Newish folks that i’ve seen this spot is hidden ‘how did you find it?’

I reclined back on my seat while she spoke well of her findings

This world is a cold one and we all move so mechanic

So when rain falls on a painting and the paint runs it’s attractive

Brings out imperfections that we try to hide but we can’t

I don’t lead with a glance i rather close my eyes and then dance

If I miss a couple of steps then that’s fine

Its my humanity whats wrong with being normal

cause it’s so off chasing vanity - likes

under lights, in the off chance that i might

I came here to take the night off with those sax notes under ice

I stood in that moment but time pulled me in forever

Through the shift and move of things that end too soon

I stood in that moment, wondering about me

Blank sterility, efficient in this room

We’re numb to reality but primed for this song

The notes they sway and though they move on

The past is always present, ready for a visit

Close but never near, even you can barely hear it

Oh, even you can barely feel it

imperfection used to be a picture too

Oh, even you can barely hear it

The human in me don’t know what to do

The sting in treble clef a minor 7 and a flat

black and white in shadows dancing all my thoughts back

Hear the clink in the glass of a jazz city poet

the silence in the night paints love as I know it

It’s the best

the broken only have

Regret is our nuance on a canvas painted black

I stare down the glass

can never take the time back

cant ever make that smile but I thought

I’d never make this rhyme rap

So the crowd claps they don’t really care

all eyes are on the stage, smoke is sleeping in my hair

Tune up the notes, I hear nothing but the night

Cuz wishing does nothing but I wish hope was right

I stood in that moment but time pulled me in forever

Through the shift and move of things that end too soon

I stood in that moment, wondering about me

Blank sterility, efficient in this room

We’re numb to reality but primed for this song

The notes they sway and though they move on

The past is always present, ready for a visit

Close but never near, even you can barely hear it

If it’s connections that i look for then why am I always blinded

I’m chained within my apps while my profile’s always signed in

Blink another message and i turned off all the banners

See i purposefully unplugged to be here in the banter

The artist on my left with the monochrome on his suit

Every time he hopped in the booth he came across

Something new It would fill him with wonder

And remind him what this bridge is for

Building all alone with the street lights as an orchestra

I’m grateful for these places to escape out of the rain

Its pouring in my cubicle and my home life is the same

I didn’t hop inside of a plane i traveled through the music notes

Boarded with these verses it loosened how all the nooses choke

I’m finally breathing now, amidst the smoke and jazz keys

This makes me happy - my life it isn’t past me

No it’s only the beginning feel the station and arpeggios

Pacing through my playlists I’m facing it through my radio

I stood in that moment but time pulled me in forever

Through the shift and move of things that end too soon

Stood in that moment, wondering about me

Blank sterility, efficient in this room

Even you can barely feel it

imperfection used to be a picture too

Even you can barely hear it

The human in me don’t know what do