Reflection

I’ve never told this to anyone

I’ve just tried to move past

But lately it seems

that my insecurities have got the best of me

And I’m no longer in control

No one should ever have to feel like this

To feel like me

Even though the good I have

outweighs the bad

the bad is what’s leaving me with sleepless nights

I spend most of my time arguing with my own reflection

For no apparent reason

And it may seem as if I have all the answers

but I’m just as lost as you

I’ve spend the past few years trying to overcome

my own misery

but these sort of things take time

and I’m running out of mine

So I will pray to a God that isn’t there

to a world that doesn’t hear

to anyone who will listen

to keep me from becoming

everything I promised myself that I would never be

I do not deserve this