Mess

I'm struggling

I can’t fit in

people I meet

they try to leave

away from me

they say nothing

but throw parties

where I can’t see

I walk alone

go straight back home

if I don’t work

then I don’t know

what to do

I think of you

another mess

my life includes

I talk to dad

I talk to mom

I say I'm fine

they say well done

well I don’t mind

if that’s a lie

I 'll be alright

just a matter of time

oh who knows how

I’ve lost myself

should’ve grown up

but I'm in doubt

do I need help

will you reach out

and calm me down

say it’s ok now

are we just strangers passing by

it’s only fair I don’t have to hide

what I feel when I see your eyes

there is no fear as you face your life

I guess I'm never good enough

to be that cool it’s way too hard

I want to be someone like you

I envy you though I want you too

what should I do

everyone loves you

they always do

you look happy

but is that true

do you understand

how lonely it gets

when no one would stay

in the end

people come

and people go

like it’s nothing

but just for show

will you as well

join the crowd

pretend we’re friends

and let me down

then we’ll be strangers passing by

it’s only fair I don’t have to hide

what I feel when I see your eyes

there is no fear as you face your life

I guess I'm never good enough

to be that cool it’s way too hard

I want to be the one for you

but I should know that it won’t come true

and I’ve thought it through

I got nothing to lose

I wish I were you