all or nothing (prod. nofeeling)

Somebody please tell me why

Everything that i love is like

Dead flowers in the winter time

And how to dissappear completely

I'll tell myself

It cant get any worse

But it always seems

All of the right things

End up being wrong

And every single time

I try to give my all

It stabs me in the back

And what i think i want

Quickly slips away

I loosen my tight grip

My feelings never mattered

You make it pretty clear

I'll guess ill just leave you over there

Just like you want me to

I still hate myself

For the failed attempts

Cant get close anymore

Or to anyone

I knew it all along

But its something i love

The feelings that we shared

The time we spent was real

At least it was to me

I second guess myself

Now i cant get a word

All i gets the cold shoulder

It was new now its over

I've got myself to blame

So you dont feel anything

Reality is pain

Just like trial and error

When every try ends in fervor

And dont you f*cking forget

I think ill always remember

We couldve got to november

If we both really tried

I put myself aside

You told yourself to hide

All my efforts futile

I always come up short

I'm in the clouds for a while

You're on even ground

I hope you hear this sound

And start to understand

That we were more than friends

But in the end

It was all or it was nothing

But i thought it was something

I prove myself wrong again

I start right where id begin

But i thought it was something

I prove myself wrong again

I start right where id begin

But in the end,it was all or nothing