how to live

My friends always ask me if i'd ever let go again

I never respond cuz im scared that i might sound insane

Or maybe i'm just afraid of the answer

Cuz i don't wanna believe that i could ever

Be in control enough so i don't lose it all

I've gained way too much man i cant afford to fall

As long as my past and i are still out at war

I promised myself i wouldn't let down my guard

I been holding myself back

Damn i forgot how to live

I been tryna be perfect

I didn't even question it

I think i forgot

How i'm supposed to live

Yeah i think i f**ked up

I just wanna live

1,2 almost 3 years went by

Without anything to ease my mind

I need some damn peace oh my

It's getting harder to get through the night

So i roll it up for them

And watch them breathe it in

I don't think they understand

Just how bad i wish that i was them

I been holding myself back

Damn i forgot how to live

I been tryna be perfect

I didn't even question it

I think i forgot

How i'm supposed to live

Yeah i think i f**ked up

I just wanna live

F**ked up

F**ked up f**ked up

Fu**ed up

I been holding myself back

Damn near forgot how to live

I been trying to be perfect

I didn't even question it

I think i forgot

How i'm supposed to live

Yeah i think i f**ked up

I just wanna live

I been holding myself back

Damn near forgot how to live

I been trying to be perfect

I didn't even question it

I think i forgot

How im supposed to live

Yeah i think i f**ked up

I just wanna live

I just wanna live