If I Hadn't Met You

If I hadn't met you

Would I be all alone

Hiding in my bedroom

Living life through a phone

I'm scared

Of everything and everyone

Everything I haven't done yet

My head is in its own

I was a dreamer but I hit my ceiling

I lie awake stone cold most evenings

I hit the bleachers instead of playing

Cause I gave up when it got frustrating

But then you find someone in your bed

Who doesn't hate the things that go in your head

And out of everybody else that I've met

It's you

You, if I didn't have you

I don't think id even leave my home

Wouldn't have no place to go go

You, if I didn't have you

I don't think id be the same

I won't ever let you, let you go go

If I hadn't met you

Would I lie through my teeth

Hiding all the rest, you

Got the best part of me

I'm scared

Of letting anybody get

Close enough to have regrets

I get if you wanna go

I was a dreamer but I hit my ceiling

I lie awake stone cold most evenings

I hit the bleachers instead of playing

Cause I gave up when it got frustrating

But then you find someone in your bed

Who doesn't hate the things that go in your head

And out of everybody else that I've met

It's you

You, if I didn't have you

I don't think id even leave my home

Wouldn't have no place to go go

You, if I didn't have you

I don't think id be the same

I won't ever let you, let you go go

My bed is so tired of me

All the demons in my head are lying to me

There's a war between myself and who I'm tryna be

Now I don't know how to function in society

One two three medications

Just so I can have a ****ing normal conversation

I sleep better when I've been sedated

I'm scared of everybody else and I hate it

You, if I didn't have you

I don't think id even leave my home

Wouldn't have no place to go go

You, if I didn't have you

I don't think id be the same

I won't ever let you, let you go go