Guilty

Your boys met me at the gates

Dangled keys and hazed

With promised fates.

I wish I could unknow what it's like

To have my body made a battlefield.

They paid until I owed

Felt so trapped

Like I'd been bought and sold.

While they played power games, got stoned,

I blamed myself and forgot who was in control.

I've walked too deep inside a man's world

Lost my strength

Forgotten what I came for

And I know I'm not the first

That you've made defend her word

When I refuse to be coerced

Somehow I'm subversive?

I'll take the blacklist, I'll do time

But I'm not guilty

So why do I feel guilty?

So guilty

As the gavel pounds

Touch my navel and I know deep down

Came all this way to see the shape your silhouette makes

When you turn from me.

I've walked too deep inside a man's world

Lost my strength

Forgotten what I came for

And I know I'm not the first

That you've made defend her word

When I refuse to be coerced

Somehow I'm subversive?

I'll take the blacklist, I'll do time

But I'm not guilty

So why do I feel guilty?

So guilty

Why do I feel guilty?

So guilty

Can I forgive myself, for myself?

Too heavy to carry

Can I forgive myself, for myself?

Too heavy to carry

And I know I'm not the first

That you've made defend her word

When I refuse to be coerced

Somehow I'm subversive?

I'll take the blacklist, I'll do time

But I'm not guilty

So why do I feel guilty?

So guilty

Why do I feel guilty?

So guilty

Why should I feel

Why should I feel so guilty?

Why should I feel so guilty?

No no no no no