Queen of Spiraling

Driving home from Ellie's house tonight

Forced to be alone with my mind

I've been spending way too much time

Trying to please everybody

Don't know where I rank in their lives

It's heavier than it should be

Stuck in between what's happening

And what could be

Feeling inside out

Don't know what to do now

Talking to myself out loud

I'm good at breaking the heart in me

But better at crying until I sleep

I'm the queen

Queen of spiraling

Finding holes in everything I say

Drowning out the sound of reason in my self pity

Feeling like the ballerina from my nightstand

When I was little and the spinning wouldn't stop ,yeah

When I grew, yeah, I knew that it would all have to change

And I'm feeling inside out

Don't know what to do now

Talking to myself out loud

I'm good at breaking the heart in me

But at crying until I sleep

I'm the queen

Queen of spiraling, spiraling

Now it's heavier than it should be

Right now I'm fragile and falling into the deep

And I'm feeling inside out

Don't know what to do now

Don't know what to do now

When talking to myself out loud

I'm good at breaking the heart in me

Better at crying until I sleep

I'm the queen

Queen of spiraling