Happy

I woke up this morning and I didn't feel like I was gonna die

My head wasn't crowded and I didn't feel like I was gonna cry

And there were no rainclouds hovering over my head

And there was no weight sitting on top of my chest

And it made me nervous that something was wrong so I called up my doctor

I said there was no pain and he said I'm okay that I shouldn't be bothered

But I don't believe him 'cause there's gotta be something

There's always a fallout and I know that it's coming

I'm so used to problems

Spending all my time trying to solve 'em

Now I don't feel haunted

If I'm being honest

How come happy makes me feel lost

I just don't understand it

How come feeling good feels so wrong

This ain't what I imagined

Wish that I could just move along

And let myself feel the magic

How come happy makes me feel lost

I just don't understand it

Is there a handbook or some sort of potion that makes this feel easy

Some sort of secret that makes you believe that you're finally healing

I can't see the darkness when the sun's always shining

I can't hear the thunder but I know that there's lightning

I'm so used to problems

Spending all my time trying to solve 'em

Now I don't feel haunted

If I'm being honest

How come happy makes me feel lost

I just don't understand it

How come feeling good feels so wrong

This ain't what I imagined

Wish that I could just move along

And let myself feel the magic

How come happy makes me feel lost

I just don't understand it

How come happy makes me feel lost

I just don't understand it