hide the tears

I'm an opportunist

I blow my smoke up in the air

Float like I'm hot ballooning

See my reflection in the mirror

And I'm just talking to it

Sometimes I wanna disappear

Sometimes I wanna lose it

Most nights, can't lie with you in bed

I can't breathe, I can't find the air

Feel like a waste just lying here

I always was the type to hide the tears

Sad everyday but haven't cried in years

I guess I'm just bored with my life

I'm so anxious and nauseous

All I see is nonsense

I can't get no higher, and I'm only at beyond's end

I think I'm nocturnal, only come out when the sun sets

Smoke a bunch of compress

Write a song to dump stress

I can't breathe, I can't find the air

Feel like a waste just lying here

I always was the type to hide the tears

Sad everyday but I've been driving ears

I guess I'm just bored with my life

Everybody leave me in the dark

B1tch, I guarantee you won't be with me when it's hard

Lookin' at the screen, I need to look up at the stars

Won't look at my dreams, they only seem to open scars

You say you love me, I only see when we apart

Can we find some agreement

Cause I need you when you're needed

All those warning signs, I never saw it, never see it

I just wanna love you, do I even need a reason?

"I don't want me here if you hate me"

Then why even here though, baby?

Crazy to want me

No one here though, save me

Feels so wrong, try to feel my lungs

I can't breathe, I can't find the air

Feel like a waste just lying here

I always was the type to hide the tears

Sad everyday but haven't cried in years

I can't breathe, I can't find the air

Feel like a waste just lying here

I always was the type to hide the tears

Sad everyday but haven't cried in years

I guess I'm just bored with my life