Hope

Tortured soul,

nobody caught on though,

don't wanna be caught on road,

they just jump in the ford and go,

but I'm out here in the warm and cold, some man wanna talk and pose,

but duck when it all explodes,

I'm all alone, forced to grow,

look i just need to afford to cope,

you judge me its all a joke,

you do coke on Friday night,

just like me but I bought to smoke.

I sort of know I need to chill

stop shotting illegal pills,

my fam I should see them still

but its been so long I don't need the guilt,

am I even real?

some days i don't even feel,

I ain't had a decent bed,

I ain't had a decent meal,

you're knee deep in the bills,

but you're going sleep with a quilt,

we need to be reaching a deal,

come on it's only a quid,

If only it was only this,

I might have chose to quit,

but I might die from the loneliness,

I talk to myself alot they pass me by I won't insist,

I know you don't owe me shit,

but why act like I don't exist?

leave me alone,

why you so needy and broke?

I can't believe your tone,

your mistakes, me to atone?

I should correct your life?

I should protect your wife?

I should defend your crime?

hide the drugs that affect your mind?

I bet you're fine,

I bet your pockets are filled up,

and you want me to empty mine

I bet its all fake aswell,

well that's what I say to myself,

how can I have so many options,

but for you it's grave or jail?

am I even real?

some days i don't even feel,

I got a decent bed,

I had a decent meal,

yeah I'm knee deep in the bills,

so I take sleeping pills

but at least I'm going sleep with a quilt, At least it was only this,

or I might've chose to quit,

some die from the loneliness,

I talk to myself alot we don't get along, I'm prone to flip, and I won't insist,

I know you don't owe me shit,

but please act like I don't exist.

there's no trust, I'm closed up, show love? don't get your hopes up

you know what, roll up! sober? don't get your hopes up