cold

I was born from something different than i am now

Cuz what i am now, is like motion of the sand

How it fights with the waves creating friction

Its the struggle of a dream, within the rhymes and the diction

That i spit whenever im feeling down

Escape in a safer sound

I always heard it takes less effort to smile than effort to frown

But im starting to think that every lie that ive heard is just adding up

Inside my chest, i think ive had enough

Im impaired by all my fears

Isolated by my peers

Hung up on the **** i hear

From lips that only disappear

And ghost me when im feeling down

Break my body to the ground

Suffocate in sadness sounds

To fold the fomo in my frown

Overdose on serotonin

Tolerance is overflowing

Only time will tell

But i got no idea just where im going

Lost up in the architechture

Of an ode to feeling better

Deep december sweater weather

808s beyond forever

I been gone for ******* years, its been all over

Theres been nothing but contempt and aggravation in my shoulders

I feel it when i fall asleep, and every day i rise

Theres no power left inside to try, so i say id rather die

But im so ************* scared that no one cares

So ill lock myself in brodys attic, adding knots to knotted hair

***** about my story, and how none of what i feel is fair

And sign it, "love, the bre a thing backwards: Unimportant, unaware"

This day might be my last

This dark cloud will never pass

So cold ill shatter like glass

Can you hear me?

This day might be my last

This dark cloud will never pass

So cold ill shatter like glass

Pickin up the pieces

Cleaning up your mess

Yeah, I used to love you

Now you make me anxious

Talkin like I'm toxic

Babe, I'm just depressed

Come through for the night

Lay your head on my chest

When the sun comes up

I might say you gotta go

Tell me how you want it baby

We can take it slow

Yeah, you're lying to my face

You don't think I'll ever know

If you're hoping for a chase

Put your faith in safer homes

Blowin up my phone

Now you're asking for a re-do

I just want some dome

And that gucci I can see through

Money ain't a problem

When you do it for the love

Keep my eyes on the prize

Til' I'm sittin up above

With a blunt in my mouth

And a knife on my tounge

Now my life's headin south

And my legs are feeling numb

Yeah, my heads filled with doubt

Can't you tell that I'm dumb?

Put my life to an end

With an unloaded gun

This day might be my last

This dark cloud will never pass

So cold ill shatter like glass

Can you hear me?

This day might be my last

This dark cloud will never pass

So cold ill shatter like glass

Never thought it would come to this

Feel the pain in my chest, put your nail in my wrist

Waking up's a struggle feeling like ****

Another new day, another plan to miss

I'm tired of taking ownership for all my missteps

I wanna feel something new, something deeper than this

Somethings I can't change, that's just a story that I say to make it go away

Don't you try to war off blame, you're the reason that I'm cold like it's the middle of the winter

I'm still ****** up from December

You can hear it in my timbre

I don't wanna remember

I'm shaken to my center

This day might be my last

This dark cloud will never pass

So cold ill shatter like glass

Can you hear me?

This day might be my last

This dark cloud will never pass

So cold ill shatter like glass