HARD YEAR

(I don’t need you)

(It’s over)

(It’s been hard)

(You don’t know me anymore)

Try me!

You don’t wanna come and find me

Been through a lot this year now I’m hiding

One thing on top of another, bad timing

You can see that I’ve been talking

Tryin’ a get my headspace straight I went all in

There’s a few people that I haven’t been calling

(It’s a long way down I’ve been falling)

Tough the winter

Broken into pieces

Wouldn’t take me with you

Rebuild, deleting pictures

Reassessing what I’ve lived through

Yeh, It’s true, It’s an issue

I find Sometimes I still miss you

someone new to hug and kiss too

Moving on but lots to get through

Lost myself I never meant to

Always trying to impress you

These screen time reminders remind me of distance

Each missed chance I’m finding in these lonely vistas

I’m grinding my teeth and I’m feeling resistance

I miss this IRL this is no existence

Oh here we go again another episode

I’m left in the dark and I’m taking the high road

It’s coded a coda a poetic reload

So I hold my breath ‘til I EXPLODE

It’s been the best of years now it’s tearing apart

Will the rest of the year be as hard as the start

You depart from the chat I’m the burnt counterpart

Cos you don’t seem to know this breaking my heart

Laid awake

Here I am, living my mistakes

For heaven’s sake (for heaven’s sake)

I couldn't live without you, now I hope you stay away

That’s what time can do to you it's funny how things change

(Funny how things change)

The past has been a presence and it’s hitting me again

I don’t want to dwell on this, it’s gone and that’s ok

Getting on and moving forward now I’m going on my way

There’s still a lot of grief there and I miss you everyday

Everyday?

What can I say?

What can I say?

Crying in the rain

Dealing with the pain

Dealing with the pain