Dumb

My friends call me dumb so I start to believe it

Say it's a joke, but I know that they mean it

I know, they say I'm never there

That I should spend more time with them, that's a funny idea

'Cause my friends are at home

And lately, I've felt so depressed and alone

I'm back where I started like three years ago

And I constantly fail to show all my affection

And all of this sh*t builds up all of this tension

I wish I could give her the things she deserves

But keep f*cking up I'm not learning my lesson

I'm dumb, I'm no fun

I have so many things in my life that are keeping me up

I f*ck up anyways

It's almost as if I just throw it away

And my girl’s the best

She wakes up my phone with a good morning text

And makes sure to buy me my favorite gifts

And tells me goodnight after blowing a kiss

Yeah, I know

But she's three-thousand miles away

Telling me everything is okay

Always f*ck up so I'm taking the blame

A little bit smarter, a little more strong

A little bit better at accepting my flaws

A little bit faster when I answer your calls

A little more effort when I'm writing these songs

And I constantly fail to show all my affection

And all of this shit builds up all of this tension

I wish I could give her the things she deserves

But keep f*cking up I'm not learning my lesson

I'm dumb, I'm no fun

I have so many things in my life that are keeping me up

I f*ck up anyways

It's almost as if I just throw it away

A few months ago I was living so well

Peaking my mental and physical health

Now I'm here

In the back with a face full of tears

In need of help but there's nobody near

But it's fine

'Cause I'll take it one step at a time

It's okay if I cry

So I’ll keep it together

'Cause one day I know that this sh*t will get better