Dark Clouds

Smiling on the outside but trouble brews within

if only you knew how dark that it gets

I’ve got it all figured out right?

But I’m haunted by sin

choices I made that won’t let me live

my house is filled with everything I want from wall-to-wall

I’d give it all back to hear my daughter talk

evil autism left me with the deepest scar

it’s taking everything I got not to fall apart

and when I’m at my best I feel I’m falling off

depression creeping in and messing with the bars

sometimes I stay in the house and I don’t leave at all

that’s also when I create best I’m feeling torn

when I’m at my best I feel I’m falling off

depression creeping in and messing with the bars/sometimes I stay in the house and I don’t leave at all

that’s also when I create best I’m feeling torn

I guess you can say I made it out

with trust issues, I helped people never the other way around suffered in silence I didn’t make a sound

I guess it’s my fault for never reaching out

I still cop Henny and crush the whole bottle

some look up to me but I am not your role model

I don’t got all the answers I got my own problems

there’s a lot of business I prefer to keep my nose out of

my son is 17 now real life is just starting

the scary thing is his love for money just like his father

I can’t help but feel that something I’m a big part of

I know he heard the stories I pray he doesn’t get caught up

in the lifestyle

judge me by what I’m doing right now

I showed you legal money could buy a house

relieved a lot of pressure when I put that life down

it’s not easy but I sacrifice proud

my thoughts go beyond working just to pay the rent

I make my boss a quarter mill I see 12%

you think that I appreciate it looking at how well I live/but I can’t help but want more, is it selfishness?

when I’m at my best I feel I’m falling off

depression creeping in and messing with the bars

sometimes I stay in the house and I don’t leave at all

that’s also when I create best I’m feeling torn

when I’m at my best I feel I’m falling off

depression creeping in and messing with the bars

sometimes I stay in the house and I don’t leave at all

that’s also when I create best I’m feeling torn

Becoming successful can be stressful thoughts get dark you find yourself in a cesspool

quittings not an option because you know what that gets you

the ceiling don’t exist there’s more levels to get to

sometimes you lack confidence that’s how I get to

look no further the answer is always within you

lessons learned we persevere through the knowledge

there’s never been a problem that I couldn’t conquer

hardest battles to his strongest soldiers never doubt it

the forecast will pass when you feel your vision is cloudy

sometimes I close my eyes and I remember jail

it was overcrowded I slept on the floor in my cell

it was short time but that year made me feel

I had to change for good and I did that so I prevail

you never know how strong you are until being strong is all you have then you realize it was in you all along

I know my family is here for me so it’s God above

I’m a work in progress all I need is love

so now when I’m at my best, I know it’s just that

all my pain is gone I left it all on this track