Fading Away

I feel like I've been gone for a long time

My body's present but I cannot find my mind

I used to love feeling everything inside

But I'm afraid the well's run dry

Every time I get a second to myself

I can't help but give it up to someone else

My brain is like a cavernous empty shell

And I'm lost inside

What is going on?

Where has my heart gone?

I miss the sun

I paint a smile on my face, I keep my hands busy

I try to trick myself but I know I am not okay

I'm breaking under the weight, of the guilt filling up my plate

I feel myself fading away

I just wanna be left all alone

Don't wanna say yes

Don't wanna say no

Don't wanna hear a sound anywhere I go

The pain is too much, just let me be alone

It hurts me to stay, it kills me to go

Letting you down, hurts more than you know

And I could never be, all that you want

And it's been tearing me apart

What is going on?

Why am I so numb?

I miss the sun

I paint a smile on my face, I keep my hands busy

I try to trick myself but I know I am not okay

I'm breaking under the weight, of the guilt filling up my plate

I feel myself fading away

And I know I can't keep living this way

All these sleepless nights and wasted days

I know what's to come if I don't change

I'll soon have faded away

I think of everyone else

But no one's there for me

I've got to love myself

And tell them I am not okay

I'm buried under the shame

And there's nobody else to blame

I feel myself fading away

I won't let myself fade away