Killers

Momma, I just killed a man

My body still trembling, can you feel my hand?

Don’t shed no tears, it won’t be long before they find out it was me, Momma

This may be the last time you see me free, Ma, don't spend it crying

You did your best, me, I was blessed, know you were stressed trying

To keep me out the streets, me, ducking police

Trying not to make a peep to wake you up out your sleep

A drunk and high fool

Skipping class, flunking high school

I know you taught me better, somehow I never learned

Said I was playing with fire, somehow I never burned

You tried to set me straight, somehow I never permed

You tried to show me right, but somehow I never turned

Lost in a cloud of m*******a, are you 'shamed of me?

Dry your face, Mommy, you're not to blame for me

See, I’m a man, I gotta take whatever came for me

At times I wonder ’bout my father, would it change for me if he was around?

Would I still be running 'round with the lowlifes?

Bum ass ****** no jobs, no life

Seen them ****** kill for no price

I watched his life flash before his eyes like a strobe light

I pulled the trigger, Momma

Tryna be hard, I ain't mean to kill the *****, Momma

But what’s done is done

I’m on the run, I live my life like a movie now it’s way too realer

Who would've thought your baby boy would've grew up to be a killer?

Yeah, now I’m a killer

Guess I’m a killer

They got me in here with the killers

Yeah, I mean the killers

"I mean—murderers! Do you hear me? Real live murderers!

I thought black people killed people by accident!

Nah, these ************* was murderers."

Yeah

Yeah, I wonder what's in store for me, lately been stressing

Pray for blessings, hope that there’s more for me than just a simple life

****** that I used to hoop with is doing triple life

Gave up the jump shot, worked on the gunshot

Who woulda thought? I used to block this *****'s lay-ups

Now he’s in a cell layed up, I wish you well, stay up

Like insomniacs, this life can make a

***** fold like a laundry mat, I sip this cognac, though

To ease my brain from all this pain and so that I react slow

In this fast world, slow ******, fast girls

Ho's give up ass while these ho ****** hold triggers

Blast on ‘em, hold up that old checker flag for ‘em

Chalk lines by the do not park sign, it’s deep

All these cold hearted ****** holding heat

I’d rather blast before they steal a *****

Tell ‘em now boy, don’t make me turn into a killer, *****

Yeah, into a killer

Don’t make me turn into a killer

Yeah, to a killer, yeah yeah

"Triple life... How do you do triple life?

That mean if he die and come back... He gotta go to penitentiary!

Right there, he said "**** kindergarten. Get your little ass on in the penitentiary, ************. You know what you did last time."

To those who had love for me in the past

Who woulda ever thought that time would fly by so fast

I remember back in class we used to make believe

Like it was draft day, swore that we would make the league and be rich

Saturday morning had to rake the leaves, aw s**t

Watch how they pile up, seem like a mile up

I washed the blisters on my hands and then I'd dial up

My best friend, skating rink is where we headed at night

And if a ***** disrespect, oh yes, we ready to fight

In retrospect that s**t seem petty, at the time the s**t was heavy

'Cause life was all about your name

You had to scrap with any ***** that would call you lame

Ashamed no doubt, so many ****** got their brains blowed out

Snatch a ****** chain and he got his name wrote out

In obituaries, another body in a cemetery

Another young ***** in the penitentiary

And he don’t give a ****: no missionary

Rap visionary, paint a picture, *****: Pictionary

Tell you what it is, I’m a dictionary

I knew a ***** threw his **** in e'ry chick in e'ry

City that he went to, went hard like the rent due

'Til he met the wrong *****, man, just came

Home ex-convict, and he stay on with that Thriller

S**t, ******* around with them killers

Yeah, with them killers

******* around with them killers

Say I’m a killer